The end

The scary thing is I'd rather take Europe than just the UK so really don't want us out. Hope people don't vote for a party who wants a referendum. Ang still drinking. Got taxi to get her script and took dogs first walk to shops. Am fighting every day not to trash nearest car-park. Ang isn't helping and Martine was grumpy last night when rang her. I wonder if I will live long enough to see my dogs to their grave safely.

Bee careful

Ang got really depressed after the Vivienne Westwood interview on TV. I got really angry. On my own I would have walked into a car park somewhere and trashed loadsa cars. Ang put me right and said someone finally saying what you've been saying for years. I'd be locked up again now having had a schizophrenic episode. Had to come home by the nighttime though as Ang got really angry after the depression. Today she woke me at 7.30 to get her cider. After sorting dogs finally took her some about 9 from the garage. Watched the big questions and learnt some history. Tweeted 3 times. Again I remain unheard in my entirety. Time marches and the descent into oblivion continues as some fight for the brakes to be applied. Even my mother is going greenish, trying to save bees.

Caroline

Looks like rain has stopped 2 weeks into May. Now comes the Saharan summer. Ang walked up to chemist with me today and we went for a pub lunch at the Red Lion. Food was crap. Ang couldn't eat her steak as it was greasy so brought it home for he dogs. My curry was a kiddies portion so I weren't happy either. Emailed covenant to Caroline Lucas 2 days ago but no reply yet. Cleaned up a bit when came home tonight and got washing up done.

Can't tweet yet

Had a mad day. Had to go to shops for Ang. Martine came over to collect some tobacco on way to Guildford and ended up walking to the station twice. After that had to go to garage for Ang. Went home to eat and went back to Ang but she got leery and I left. Settled in after taking dogs for a walk to boatbeach. Hopefully Ang will be sober tomorrow. Watched bbc question time and tried to tweet. Still aint got the hang of it. Maybe next week if I practice. Gunna get dogs out and hopefully sleep well as am tired out with all the walking today.

Bad timing....updated

Ang woke me about 1.30. I raged at her on the phone and finally agreed to go to the garage if she came. Had breathing attack on way down but no inhaler with me. Got back and collected inhaler I'd left at hers. Went back to bed and she rang me a 7.20 so go up and fed dogs. When I went to take hem out for morning walk came straight out to a women, child and a dog and Buster went mad. Tried to get dogs back in and they ended up fighting in the hallway. Struggled to get them apart and finally managed to get Dainty behind the kitchen door. Banished Buster to the bedroom and collapsed on the sofa gasping for breath. Puffer sorted me out but got a major headache now. When let dogs out had to examine them for injuries. Dainty has blood on her side but can't find an injury and can't find anything on Buster. I've got a bite on my left leg but luckily it is more of a bruise than a wound. Visitors due soon but don't wanna see anyone. Update. Ang don't wanna see me. The chain was on the door when popped over to pick up some bread. Rang her and she ranted at me and told me she never wants me at hers again. Managed to find spicy bean burger and veg rice to eat after taking dogs for a long session down the boat beach. Still go raging headache so be glad for bedtime. Talked to Martine and her daughter is visiting for a few days.

Choices

Ang still drinking so spent the day on facebook and watching news. Got dogs to boat beach about 2.30 and they both had a good run about and paddle. Dainty had to have some ear cleaner put in which was a struggle. Had the soaps on while typed post to Richard Dawkins page so didn't manage to follow much. Will technology save the planet. I replied.... I doubt that it will. Maybe we will use different fuel in nuclear reactors, solar and wind farms. We are very gradually converting to less polluting vehicles but we still crave world travel by cruiseliner and plane. It is the choices we make that counts in the end. I choose to dig up my garden and let the buried seeds germinate. I also planted an apple tree. Now my garden is mainly "fairies" with a few other native plants. Bees love the garden in early spring. A green close by has been slowly getting denser in its population from the fairies blown the short distance. Something the lawns of suburbs needs. So. Do you weedkiller the lawn or help bees. Choices.

Failure

Tried to talk to Ang yesterday but she threw me out. Went home and tried to watch TV but wasn't in mood. Soon they will depot me again and won't be able to remember or put it into words. Will have to wait another 10 days or so before can talk to her again. C'est la vie. Went round to Ang's but go really tired so crashed for a while. Came home and got an early night leaving Ang watching Vera.

Two weeks in May

Got the rain on 1st of May and it's really overcast today so far. Don't know if can maintain rain for two weeks as am fighting climate which wants to make it sunny. May only be able to maintain cloudy/overcast with occasional rain. Be glad when can stop all this caffeine. Got a surprise lined up for the 11th which should hit on the 13th. Normal service will be resumed on the 14th. Buster attacked Dainty this morning just after put their leads on to come to Ang's after feeding them. Threw Buster in the bedroom for 5 minutes to calm down.