German market

Been a quiet few days. Ang gone to Bournemouth German market with Helen and Graham. Rescued an injured hedgehog yesterday and RSPCA collected it.

Training to hunt

RSPCA man turned up a few days ago. Had a report that we weren't taking the dogs out. Told him the routine I have and think he realised someone was being vindictive. No surprise really considering the grief neighbors and council giving us a minute. The bloke left after seeing the dogs and was gobsmacked that Buster was immediately friendly with him instead of getting vicious to a stranger in his home. He went straight up to him and didn't need to be held back at all. Must be summut about him Buster liked. Ang's council letter arrived yesterday and was hand delivered. The people to insulate her loft arrived today and finished after half hour or so. We took the dogs to the boat beach and round to Lidl after loft men left. On the start of the wasteland we met a guy training his cross breed to hunt. She was young and really enthusiastic. Buster was a bit unsure of her so we couldn't stop and talk. Got home and dogs both crashed and we had a cheese and tomato+chilli pickle roll.

Visitors

Ang came over last night and stopped the night. We didn't wake til 9 as we were up late. Took dogs to garage first walk but Ang didn't come. Came back and visitors came at 12.30. Discussed email to council. Had a rant and finished sweeping up after they left. Buster fallen asleep on one of sleeping bags so not gunna disturb him to shake it off. Will have to do it later.

Penning

Ang been at hers for days now. Have seen her a few times and collected her laptop to order her script today. Phoned surgery after 10 mins to check request went through as last weeks failed for some reason. Didn't get up til 9.30 when Buster hassled me for a 2nd time. First layin had for years. Was feeling ok til saw an item about penning in US on facebook. Despair of human race. Wish could speed up events but must be patient. Mayday is so far away.

School again

Saw Ang today at hers and went down garage for her giving dogs third walk. Spent most of day messing on facebook and listening to music. Be glad of bed tonight as am tired. Spoke to Martine a few times on phone and she been writing. Today is 13/12/13 it has been unlucky in the US. Another school shooting.

Police

Ang went into Poole today. When she came back we went for a walk to ham common. She went pyscho while out and screamed and yelled at me most of the way home. She calmed down but lost it again while I was trying to sort something on her computer about 5.30. I told her to leave and she called the police to get some stuff because I wouldn't let her back in. Unbelievable. Later she rang and asked me to walk down the shop with her to get some wine. I took Buster and walked her there and back. She was ok and said she'd see me tomorrow. Rang her when got home and she lost it about me having my sister come over tomorrow. I think that's why as she weren't making sense. Glad today is nearly over.

May day 2014

Had a crappy day. Everything kept going wrong. Glad last sequences for a while. Martine came over and went for a walk with dogs with Ang and me. Boy do they walk slow. Martine went to chemist for Ang when we got back on her bike and left when she got back with our scripts. Haven't been watching the many Mandela programs but want to see the funeral. Only had some toast and grapefruit for breakfast and two eggs batches later on in the day. Am hungry and can't be bothered to cook a meal. Hopefully get takeaway later if stay up late. I have little patience but hopefully won't lose it before May day next year. It will be the start of the Summer of restructuring.

Locked up

Spent all last night at police station in Bournemouth after getting arrested at 8.10. Was released with no further action and brought home about 5.30. Managed to get to sleep for an hour and half before had to be up for dogs. Ang had the dogs while I was locked up and stupidly she took Buster out. Thankfully nothing happened but guessed she wouldn't wait til I got back. They had been out at 7 and could have waited til the morning. I had visitors later in the morning but thankfully they didn't stop too long. Ang was up all night and went around 6 to get a good nights sleep. We managed a walk round to the shops from the boat beach during the afternoon. The tide was in and the bay looked good.

Movember over.

Ang had a drink over hers last night. Rang me at 8 this morning and came over feeling like shit. Bad hangover and hardly eaten today. We went to Rockley Park. Brought 2 baguettes at the shop and went onto where benches are by car park to eat them. Ang got best chicken tikka sdalad that had ever had. She mistakedly got an egg one for herself and couldn't eat it because didn't know if it was free range. She was really lifted by getting out and managed some lentil soup when she got home. I had bath and cut beard and tash off. Feel human again. If Police have been murdering people to gain psychic protection for officers then Glasgow crash was not an accident but murder, again. How well will the tamper with evidence to make it look like an accident?

Lonely night

Ang came with me on second walk today from wasteland to Lidl and back across the field by garage. Rebuilding Ang computer while posting this. State of play. Evidence of global temperatures show living in Poole has stabilized temperature even though human race is continuing CO2 emission. Lets hope reduction is achieved before I die and the effect I have stops, with consequential increase in temperature. I could not proceed with the water depletion method because of the high death toll that would have ensued and am deciding on weather to continue with the cloud cover and rain next year in the UK. I apologise to UK residents for the disruption but the government will not acknowledge me, nor anyone for that matter. I thought the first phase of financial attack would have worked. Regretfully I miscalculated the stupidity of people. The next phase, in early 2014 can only be stopped in the way previously outlined. If this doesn't occur in time Bitcoin will be worthless. World order will have collapsed. So celebrate if you own a gun.

Quiet times

Been quiet for a while. Martine visited Friday and stayed til last train. Sunday we took the dogs and visited her. Today Ang went into Poole.

Boosters

Ang not been drinking for days. Took dogs to boat beach today after visitors been. Ang came and also went to vets with me to get dogs boosters. Dogs were manic on table with vet. Picked up next 3 months meds for Dainty as well. Ang had argument with women outside chip shop because I told her son not to come near the dogs. Got bus home after picking up some fish and chips and only had to wait a couple of minutes for bus.

Early night

Ang been sober for couple of days so allowed her to stay. She saw dr Friday and got temp so gone on antibiotics for a week. She feels lousy and staying in bed mostly. Got up 5.15 today so managed to get dogs out early to shops. Risked leaving dogs outside shop as hardly anyone about. Missed some of dr whos yesterday as went to bed about 9.30. Martine phoned just after got in bed. Going to crash out for an hour or two after done washing up.

Aftermath

Ang got me up 4.45 yesterday shouting at Dainty outside my front door. I jumped up and got them both in then she started on me. Lasted til 7ish. Started again at 8 and went on til she took herself to bed at 11.30ish. I went to appointment at 1.30 and got back just after 3. Had only been in 10 minutes and she started on me. Got her to leave after an hour. Couldn't sleep til after midnight and woke at 7.30. Buster demanded I get up so crawled out of bed. Spoke to Jane and Martine yesterday. Rang Martine this morning and she cheered up a bit. No contact with Ang yet today and got a headache so had some pills. Feel like shit.

Lesson unlearnt

Ang been terrible last few days. Raising her voice and going on at me for no reason. Last night she refused to leave and started shouting at me just before midnight. Thankfully it only lasted a few minutes. Got up at 8 and am waiting for her top get up after taking dogs to railway station and making a 3rd coffee.

Earlier rise

Got woken about 3.45 this morning by one of neighbors in my block hammering for about 5 minutes. Couldn't get back to sleep and eventually got up at 7. Ang rang just after gone to bed last night and told her I wasn't getting up as was knackered. Flead the dogs on night of the 7th. Ang rang just after 8 this morning to check I was up. She's been awake since 3 so is gunna go back to bed for a while. Wish I could. She missed doctor yesterday as never managed to get hold of her before he tried ringing.

Early rise

Ang came over yesterday and stayed a few hours. She got stroppy when asked her to leave and started screaming when she couldn't get her key in the door. Dr tried to contact her but she had her mobile off. Hopefully he will reach her today. Am going to ring her on the intercom about 9.30 to make sure she puts her mobile on. Today really dragging. Sure time has stopped or going backwards. Was up at 7.15 for some reason. Hope Ang has slept well and not been up all night drinking.

Vets again

Got Buster to vets Monday morning. He's got a wound on his head by his left ear. Antibiotics and salt water bathing. Had to call Police to get Ang removed Monday afternoon after she refused to leave. She got arrested but brought home that night. Tuesday she came round and stayed a while. Woke up early today but ran out of sugar so can't have a coffee :(

Early alarm call (updated)

Ang binged yesterday and started shouting but couldn't get her to leave. Woke at 5 today because Dainty was asking to go out. Told Ang she had to leave at 6 but she took herself off to sleep about quarter past 6. Gunna feed the dogs about 7 and get onto council woman at 9. Dunno when will get dogs out to railway station as need to avoid time kids are going to school so Dainty can be let off lead. Hate getting up early. Throws all the days timing out. Had a thorough exam of Buster this morning. He has an injury above his left ear. Am going to have to get him to the vet asap as it is quite a lump. Am worried also that he keeps looking up at the ceiling and sniffing the air. It's an unusual behaviour for him.

Buster damage

Woke at 6.30 this morning so got dogs on first walk just before 9. Dainty was better than yesterday and didn't have to be encouraged to go so fireworks last night hadn't affected her as badly. Ang fuming at me about yesterday. Spoke to Martine last night and she not fretting too much about it but it spoilt the night. Ang really glad she came and she got to spend some time with her. Am dreading meeting any big dogs today when go out as Buster will prolly be horrendous. Every time I start getting somewhere with him he gets attacked and set back. I think his left ear took some damage as he gave out a tiny yelp when I put his choke on this morning. Can't find a wound but will have to keep an eye on him. Ang has taken him off to the bedroom to keep him quiet and catch up on her sleep. He's acting quite sorry for himself today but enjoyed going out earlier.

More fireworks/dog attack.

Had a really good evening with Martine and Ang until neighbors started letting off fireworks right outside my lounge window again. Took Buster out and raged on them and let Buster bark a lot. Called the Police when got back in. They turned up later and I think it got sorted out because they didn't come back. About 5 to 12 took dogs out for a wee and a mastiff going by off the lead came over and attacked Buster. Luckily the bloke who was with it with two women dragged it off as quick as he could. He came back to check on Buster and seemed genuine. Quite an eventful evening all round.

Neighbors terrifying local dogs

Been quiet for a few days until last night when the neighbors decided to let fireworks off right outside my lounge window. They started just before 9pm and went on for about 20 minutes. It absolutely terrified both the dogs and took me nearly an hour to settle them down. Two days ago managed to introduce dogs to new neighbour. Dainty was all over him straight away being her usual friendly self with an adult and unusually Buster took to him as well. After talking a while found out he's used to dogs so hopefully Buster won't bark at him now if he sees him in the road. Ang went into Poole yesterday for a few hours. Took Dainty to vets by taxi for 4.30 appointment. Vet checked her over thoroughly and gave her another weeks supply of antibiotics but warned me the abscess would leave a lump that might take 4 to 6 weeks before it fades away.

Family problems

We had an argument for about 10 minutes last night over Martine. Ang had someone visit this morning but came over and made a coffee. She seems ok. Buster managed it to the boat beach last night but only went to the railway station and the shops yesterday. He was limping when he first woke up but wasn't too bad when I took him out for first wee. He had more or less stopped limping by first walk to railway station but we kept him to short walks on the lead to rest his leg. Dainty's side has improved slightly but think she will have to go back to the vets when her antibiotics finish. She still has quite a lump on her and is having to wear a buster collar to stop her biting it.

Bad luck in 3's

Took dogs to boat beach today. Buster got into trouble three times. First time he got a bit of heather stuck on his right paw. Second time he got a piece of rose bush stuck on his chest. We both expected a third thing and when he jumped down from the bench we stopped at he twisted his front right paw and limped home. It's got worse and we've given him some aspirin to help but hopefully he'll improve by the morning. Don't know why but supposed to be major storm tonight.

Vets again

Managed to get Dainty to vets Thursday. She got an abscess at the spot where she got bit a few weeks ago. Feel like taking bill around to neighbour. Cost £48 and now she on antibiotics for a week and can't have yearly jabs yet. Women neighbour shouted about 8.30 this morning and woke up to find a tent outside my lounge window. Am getting up later each day lately. Didn't wake til nearly 8.30 today. Am actually managing to keep Ang motivated lately. She hasn't broke down or got really angry for ages.

Vet needed

Discovered Dainty had blood on her side last night and a lump she was biting at. Need to get her to the vets asap after looking at it in daylight. Am trying to raise the cash from everyone that owes me but looks like tomorrow now. Ang got upset when we found out and took it out on me. Dainty is leaving it alone today which is a relief that she doesn't have to have a collar on. Got letter yesterday from vets about their jabs and was gunna do that in a fortnight. Looks like I'll be there sooner.

Dysfunctionality

Stayed up late last night after getting news my dad had died of pneumonia about 13.00. Had heated debate with Ang over programme on TV. Ended up in her argueing against ARKism. Thankfully we agreed to disagree. Had to cancel appointment was due to go to today as just can't face questions today. Managed to get couple of banana milks from garage yesterday. Hope there are breaks in the weather so can get dogs out. The energy companies better watch out as we might not have a winter this year. Boy will their profits be down. They shouldn't piss the messiah off. Fed the farmers this year, perfectly. Replenished the water tables, rapidly, sorry about floods. I wonder if I can tax the profits farmers made this year. Oops I forgot, I'm a schizophrenic that needs drugging because I'm deluded. Well my delusion says that early next year world finances will degenerate further. Capitalism is dysfunctional. Politics is dysfunctional. Media is dysfunctional. The result is dysfunctional people.

Loud music

Has been really quiet for a while although there was a noisy party over the back at the weekend and someone close had music on quite loud yesterday evening. Monday council came and stayed a long time. They ignored the fact that various neigbors have an axe to grind with us. At least we haven't been given notice yet. Watched the agenda last night. They should have listened to MF a bit more. Ang got suicidal yesterday but talked her out of the mood. Buster was restless late last night after a car went past the front door and disturbed him. On Ang's birthday she got a message that her Mum was ill in hospital and we eventually managed to contact Martine and let her know.

Anti social behaviour

Had a quiet 2 days with some nice dog walks even though it rained all first morning. That night late the neighbors where shining a lazer in my window until I got up and looked out to see it was coming from 176. Dainty has been fine after her trip to Ham Common even though she went mental while she was up there. Ang has been good for weeks now although we were both massively depressed yesterday. Thankfully walking the dogs worked for Ang and I stopped watching the news channels and recovered by the end of the day. We lived off sandwiches and soup as neither of us could face cooking. Thankfully today is better for Ang and I'm able to cope with news again. Got council visiting Monday so will have to have an early start to get dogs sorted out in time. Sun was out earlier but it has gone cloudy now.

Ham Common

Been quiet last few days. Ang went into Poole Saturday and again Monday. We both took the dogs to Ham Common second walk today and they both went for a splash about in the water. There was quite a few fishermen there and 2 labs splashing about over the far side of the lake. The sun was quite warm so it was really pleasant and great to see Dainty having fun.

Screaming female

Last night me, Ang and the dogs went to chip shop on the blandford road. We managed to pick Ang's script up a day early as we walked. Got home about 7.15 after catching bus to the boat beach. About 11.15 there was some screaming outside. I think it was the neighbors as it carried on muffled for about half a minute. Went to bed about 11.45 and was woke by Dainty mooching around at 5.15. Dainty didn't wanna go for walk at 9 so tried her again at 9.50 up to railway station to see Ang off on train to Poole. Paid £2.20 to go about 8 stops on bus one way and Ang paid £3.00 to get return on train to Poole. Sun is showing it's face at last.

New bed.

Neighbor was bit noisy early today again. Would have been enough to wake me if hadn't already been woken by Buster. Ang came out on second walk and we went to Lidl. She is eating well at minute and hardly drinking. Found a lodger on Buster last night so treated them both. Dainty was good on second walk so took Buster on his own to boat beach for 3rd walk. Drank 5 coffees today. Had itchy red lump come up on left leg. Thankfully it going down now and itching less often. Some sort of allergic reaction but no obvious bite mark and it much bigger a patch than a mossy bite. I keep getting daddy long legs coming into the flat. Drives the dogs mad. Moved Dainty's bedding again to the spot she's chosen to sleep to try and get her off the tiles. She's been laying on it for the last hour so hopefully she'll sleep on it tonight.

Noisy neighbors

Got woke at 7.10 yesterday by Robbo using some sort of machinery outside his flat that was making a loud whining noise. Today got woke at 7.25 by some woman yelling about having to go shopping. Managed to get dogs sorted by 8.30 and out to railway station. Went down shops to get a few things about 10 before heavy showers started about 11. Had letter from council yesterday that they want to visit later this month but can't contact women as she not in office for 10 days. Had to collect Angs script from chemist yesterday and take it to Upton chemist because local chemist couldn't get one of her drugs. That took ages waiting for buses and 15 minute wait in chemist.

Messages in the soaps

Didn't succeed in quitting smoking and back up to level last week :(. Am not gunna give up trying though as had less today than yesterday. Kept busy doing housework and taking dogs out. Martine rang a few times earlier upset and angry. Talked a bit and hopefully will talk later. Spoke to Jane and she may be moving out. Spoke to my sister online earlier and Ang rang just as was getting back with dogs from second walk behind the railway track. She not asked me to go to shops today so maybe she'll not be drinking tomorrow and can come over again. Joan rang and moaned about family and hospital staff. Talked for a while and told her to eat and get some sleep. Got dogs fed at 6.45 and used up Ang's steak I cooked yesterday on it's use by date. Dog's loved it but had to give them less food else they'll get fat. Dainty is chomping a chew and buster is asleep on his bed under my table. Helen rang and will let me know tomorrow when Graham will pop over. My phone is just about out of charge now with all the phone calls today. Got mopping of floors to do yet but fed up wiv it today as the sweeping did my head in. Slob out in front of TV with One show and soaps methinks. See if can follow the story alone. Been back on coffee since yesterday and headaches gone.

Harvest time

Martine and Jane came round yesterday to pick up some stuff and drop off some bread, coffee and milk I asked them to get for me. Martine picked a dozen or so of the apples to take home as they are ready for picking now. Just as they were about to go Ang rang to ask me to go to shops so took the dogs and got myself some eggs and butter. Tried knocking Ang's door this am but no reply and she didn't answer 2 calls on intercom at 10.30 after got back with the dogs. Got caught in a shower when took dogs up to railway station and flat is like the black hole of Calcutta today because of the clouds.

Anniversary

Ang binged for last two days and has been intolerable. Eventually she left this morning. Posted a message on her facebook page wishing her happy anniversary. I am a day late but she forgot as well and was pissed anyway. Cuttting smoking down over last two days. Going turkey tomorrow as breathing terrible. Quit coffee 2 days ago and had headache ever since. It's milder today than yesterday.

Autumn cold

Had letter to have ECG and blood test so made appointment for Thursday. Wednesday nose started streaming so cancelled appointment this morning as woke up at 2.30 struggling to breath and both nostrils streaming. Thankfully Kenya siege over but Pakistan suffering now due to earthquake. Ang got up at 2.30 as she was here and went down the garage. I followed about 20 mins later after breathing settled with a couple of puffs on Ventolin and meet her with Buster on her way back. She was grateful for me to carry the shopping but jumped when she saw me as she was miles away. I went back to bed about 4.30 and woke again at 6 so got up. Ang been asleep on sofa since 7 waking once about 9.30.

Blood of the wig

Managed to slice into my left index finger at 7.25ish tonight. Bled like hell. Am well pissed off and not looking forward to Sunday night now. Not bad enough to need stitching though. Ang came out on a walk to the shops and down the backwaters to lidl later. She made herself spag bol when we got back. Buster had his final check up on Thursday and got the all clear. He finishes his antibiotics tomorrow and I stopped his metacam Wednesday. We decided to get dogs insured as vet bills have crippled us for a while. A neighbors dog broke through it's fence and attacked Dainty a few days ago. Buster thankfully saw it off while I got them both in. It went back into it's garden and I used a ramp the council had left to block the hole. Went around to the house that evening and told them. The bloke apologised and said they were waiting for the council to repair the fence.

No sleep

Been a quiet few days. Plumber came Monday and fixed taps on kitchen sink. Ang cut down again. Missed Busters appointment today because Dainty has been keeping me up most of the night. She keeps asking to go out every 10 or 15 minutes and then just lays on the grass or sits in the road. Took her for a walk about 1.15 last night on her own to the garage but after half an hour she was crying at the door again. Hoping to get Buster to vets for check up in next 2 days. He's been on Marbocyl since day after op.

Same old

Ang lost it yesterday and had to get her out of here. She came back later when she'd calmed down. Buster had his bandage off at the vets and is now wearing a Buster collar. Ang fell asleep on the sofa and woke me at 6.30 then got real leary so sent her packing again. She rang about 5pm and came over to dogsit while I went to the shops. Joan rang about 4 asking me to ring Ray so rang her back with his number. Helen rang and told her Ang was at hers on her mobile.

A poem

Aaargh. Dorothy went tits up last and now can't update website. Need to update Warning page with "First rapture effect felt 7/9/2013. Duration approximately 3 or 4 seconds. Am satisfied circuit + and need to fade final connections to reach optimum effectively removing all resistances." Wrote a poem a few days ago. Take the system apart and start with the money. Wake up the land of milk and honey. Blow the wind then bring the rain and thunder Await the voice from down under The day is here for decision Freedom or languish in prison I follow laws above your own Every since my soul was grown Called in to being years before Building temples to even the score One is all I needed to finish the plan Trial and error to build a place Some time and space Where insides out And truth is doubt Enter only if you dare Talk with the messiah there. Not very good but Ang liked it. Had to get drink for her last night after she found out about Buster. She had less than normal and we watched the news channels til about 3.30am. Buster went in for 2nd op on paw this morning. He might have to have xray if nothing found again. Roughly £80 quid more than last time if he does. Hope he'll be ok as he tough. Would be well worried if was Dainty. Finished poem with this line today "I've not quite done all I can".

Late night

Ang had a drink last night. Stayed up with her and watch news on RT and Aljazeera. Got to bed about 3.30am. During early hours Ang fell and landed on the table on top of my tv glasses :(. Thankfully she didn't hurt herself but she nearly killed my glasses. Got the lens back in that came out and more or less bent the frame back into shape so can still use them. Found out Indie had a stroke a few weeks ago as passed her house on morning walk with dogs today. Seems she on the mend now though. World is still harping on about growth. Seems they don't get it yet. Mayday holiday will be interesting. Hopefully get some jobs done in garden over next few days. Apples are coming on well but could do wiv more sun yet. Haven't managed to see any mushrooms yet this year.

A week

Ang came over a while ago and hasn't been drinking for days. She's using an electric fag a lot as well. Yesterday we managed to get the dogs out on a long walk around back of the factories because it was cool and cloudy. Left leg is healing after injury a while ago. Still don't know how I did it. God did it itch the second day. Got loads of jobs done yesterday and managed to get dogs on 3 walks. Both spent day watched different news channels to try and understand if peace is breaking out amongst leaders or whether world war 3 is about to start.

Another binge

Ang phoned me at 12 on Saturday night and came over so I could go to the garage for her. I was fast asleep and it pissed me right off. She dogsat and I walked up the garage without the dogs. She stayed over but had a right go at me all Sunday. Monday morning she woke me at 3.20 and Dainty was outside. Dainty was really weird and spent next hour asking to go out every 10 minutes and just sitting in the road. Drove me mad and didn't get back to sleep til 5. Ang woke me at leaving so I abandoned the idea of sleep and got up. She left her handbag behind and I took it over when got back from vets with Buster at about 10.45. She came over and walked in gasping for breath. Managed to get her to take a couple of puffs on ventolin inhaler which settled her down. Then she started yelling about her handbag and I went over with her to find it for her. Came back because she started calling me horrible things again. Thankfully she hasn't been over since but have door locked in case. Hopefully the binge won't last too long. She started Thursday when Buster went to the vets before his op on Friday.

Same old

Ang got leary yesterday after drinking. By 4pm today I had had enough and it took half an hour to get her out. Buster had a trip to the vets Thursday and vet said he had to come in Friday for an op on his foot because vet thought he had a grass seed in it. Friday he went in at just after 8 and came home about 11. Vet couldn't find grass seed so Ang has been angry ever since. Buster slept most of Friday but was back to himself this morning. He's got a thick plastic bag to go over his bandage when he goes out which he doesn't like.

Evidence based future or faith

Am really annoyed Cameron can say definitely that regime used chemical weapons in Syria. Obviously someone did but terrorists...as the west labels Hezbollah...like Al Qaeda are also capable of things as horrific as 9/11. It would also be a way to start an outright war between the Arab world and the west. Something they would like is a front line.

Incubation period

Ang been doing well lately until she heard news about the start of the badger cull. They should wait twelve months til the research into badger contraception due in 2014. Wonder which is worse bTB or http://www.defra.gov.uk/animal-diseases/a-z/foot-and-mouth/ Wonder how long it will be from today?

Return to Wareham

Went to Wareham Tuesday on the 12.19 train with Ang and the dogs. We all took a slow walk into the town and got fish and chips. Was not impressed with the chips but Ang enjoyed her cod and my chicken was nice. We walked back to near the subway and sat on a piece of grass by the side of the road shaded by some trees. After we had finished we wandered back to the station and only had 8 minutes to wait for the train. Total cost £17.20 with the train fare of £7.40. Was shocked it is now £3.70 cheap day return to Wareham. Last time I went it was £2.60. That's roughly 30% in less than 2 years. Personally I think the figures quoted on TV are rubbish....rail fares seem out of control around here. Dainty wasn't good yesterday but managed to get out. Think she did too much walking in Wareham. Buster has been showing signs of problem with his front right paw so will get it looked at when he goes for jabs in September. It may be he's just twisted it a couple of times racing about so am keeping a close eye on him.

Lucky bitch

Ang been great to be with last few weeks. She managing to come out on walks but still having pains in leg. She pissed off Cameron backing fracking. She remembers video of someone lighting gas coming out of the faucet in the kitchen and the earthquakes here and in America. Had to buy flea treatment for dogs at weekend as Buster had a lodger. Got 3 months worth from vet Saturday. Am really struggling with how to revamp website. Need to do loads of rewrites of material but can't motivate myself because the task is immense to achieve my goal. Spoke to sister yesterday. She got a new puppy from a rescue place. Lab cross bitch. She's called her Annie.

Waiting game

Approximately 3 months ago I had an increase in fixed income. As a consequence UK growth has occurred. This is a temporary state of affairs as the effect of interest will soon negate growth effect and continue the further decline of global economies. To accelerate the decline I simply have to purchase an item I need. You will be glad to know somebody gave me some items I required so have no need to spend. This will extend the period the growth occurs to a maximum of 8 months(guesstimate). Had appointment yesterday and collected Ang's meds on way back. Got taxi to drop me at chemist and walked back with some shopping as well. Was knackered when got back and had to have a puff on inhaler. Visited friend after appointment and he asked me to send a bible in to him. Hopefully will pass it in via visitors on Wednesday. Desperately struggling to keep temperature down but climate location effect is overpowering local weather control. Saw program about magic buildings as well few days ago that clean pollutants out of the air.

Another fall

Ang fell 5 nights ago. I had gone to bed early because she had got nasty after drinking heavy and was woke to her screaming. She landed on her left side and had to get a doc out the next day because she was squealing in pain every time she moved. She prescribed some strong painkillers and a gel and I took a taxi to chemist and back. Next day she was worse and spoke to doc again and they upped the strength of the painkillers but told her to expect it the be bad for 2 or 3 more days. She woke at 3am this morning and chased up prescription at 8.30. Can't get hold of it til dinner time though. Martine rang yesterday and is prolly coming over today. Update. Ang still suffering this am. She stopped at mine last 2 nights and has been in loads of pain. She struggling to do things for herself and is staying in bed really late into the early afternoon.

Magic pavement

Visited Ang with the dogs 3 times yesterday and she came to mine late on the evening to stay the night. Buster woke us about 7.30 and so I got up. Weather is still blazing so can't get dogs out as won't walk them if it's above 25 degrees. Been 30 for nearly a week now. Just took them usual morning walk to railway station and back through the houses. Ang was up when I got back. Had second coffee and watched BBC news channel. Apparently Britain is a country of litter louts. It's brilliant for tracking weblines but crap for the environment. One beach had 20 tonnes removed at the weekend :O. Colour theory relating to the d-web states the hospitals should be able to improve outcomes simply by repainting according to the rules. Building modifications and location of operating theatres is important as well and can calculated to increase amplification effect. It really annoys me that the news repeats so often but am waiting for the magic pavement story to be repeated as missed most of it earlier.

Summer heat

Ang has been staying at hers and I've visited a few times. She's been on a binge since Thursday of last week. Yesterday I went to the shops for her to get her some money and cider. Afterwards I organised getting her medication by taxi as it was too hot to walk Buster there and Ang wouldn't come over to dogsit while I walked down. I haven't heard from her since she rang to ask where her tobacco was as she couldn't find it. I've tried her on the intercom but she isn't picking up. About 2pm today I went and knocked her door twice but she didn't answer. I couldn't get in to check on her as she asked me to lock the door and post the key through the letterbox when I took her shopping and medication over. Martine came over yesterday with some shopping I asked her to pick up on the way. Had run out of coffee, sugar and mixer for the dogs. She brought loads of fruit as well and left me some. She stayed til the last train back to Bournemouth. About 9.30pm we took Buster to the boatbeach but Dainty didn't want to come. I can't take the dogs out again today as it's too hot. Luckily this morning it was really cloudy and a lot cooler so they got out first thing. Even going behind the railway track is too far in this heat so they will have to make do with just going to the railway station again.

Yellow

Ang went back to hers quite a while ago. At first she spent most of her time at hers but yesterday she spent most the day with me at mine. She comes out on the second walk usually but has had a couple of 3rd walks in the last week. A few days ago I noticed her face was yellow when I saw her and told her. She said it was the sun but it faded as the day went on. Yesterday I saw her at 12.30ish which was about an hour earlier it it was even yellower. Today I got up early and have sorted second walk out earlier so can see her outside in the daylight earlier in the day. I think she is showing signs of jaundice in the morning now. I'll know in about an hour. She had 2 bottles of rose last night. She came over 8.30ish to dogsit while I went down in the drizzle to get her a second bottle. She hasn't been on a binge since she went back to hers. Got some more cupboards cleaned yesterday but the kitchen floor needs doing bad so hopefully get that done after recovered from second walk. Buster been nightmare last 3 days. Something in the local area and on the green has sent him mental. We think it is a bitch on heat because he's been dragging me like mad all over the green when he goes out there. He went off his food for 24 hours and was wittering for 10 minutes every time he came back in. Thankfully today he was better on the lead and ate. Hopefully won't get so tired out taking him later. Update. Ang wasn't as yellow the next time I saw her so didn't say anything to her about it.

111

Had to call ambulance for Ang a few days ago. She was having breathing problems and they nebulised her for 20 minutes. She came back over mine afterwards and stopped the night. She was in quite a state and had to be helped get around. Thankfully she started eating and picked up the next day. She didn't drink at mine but left after 2 nights here when she got leary.

Dizzy spell

Ang has been at hers for days but turned up this morning. She stayed til the evening but got leary and it took me over half an hour to get her out. I had phonecall from Martine as she was going so rang her back after Ang had gone. Ang has only eaten half a slice of cheese on toast in 2 weeks now. As she got up to leave she went dizzy and leaned on the window sill to stay upright. She's not safe on her own but can't stay here shouting.

Early alarm call

Ang rang me at 6amish this morning. She couldn't find her tablets. I told her they were in her handbag and she shouted at me and hung up. I dozed til 7 then got up when Buster hassled me. Took dogs to railway station and Dainty managed to find some poo to eat. Ang rang later and said she was gunna ring RSPCA and at 10am she rang me and told me to expect a visit tomorrow. Then she screamed at me that I was gunna get our dogs taken away. This week is going by loverly. :(

More grief

Yesterday Ang came round and started playing up. She wouldn't leave until I threatened to call the police. She came round today. She was ok for a while then took herself off to bed. She woke about half hour later and started yelling at me from the bedroom. I went in and told her to be quiet or leave. She was quiet for about 10 minutes then started again. I told her to leave and she got up and refused to leave. In the end I had to ring the police. The first attempt she tried to get the phone off me and I had to shut myself in the kitchen to phone them. They arrived after a while and thankfully she went with them after about 10 minutes. I rang Martine later and she cheered me up. Ang rang about 21.30 but started giving me grief over the phone so I hung up on her.

Sunday

Ang has been quiet the last few days but yesterday she was on my case every hour about something. About 7pm she came to the door and when I refused to let her in she went ape banging the knocker and shouting. She left after about 5 minutes. I woke at about 7 but rolled over til 8. Ang rang a few times and Martine rang. About 2.30 Ang rang saying she'd been asleep and asking me to get her some cider. Went to the garage so dogs could get a walk in and didn't have to tie them by the shops.

Quieter day

Ang rang at 8 this morning and ended up coming round because I didn't answer the phone. Buster barked and she rang later asking me to go to the shops. Took both dogs on first walk to shops and have decided to have quiet day in. Hopefully will get some kip and recharge batteries. Am wiped out after yesterday an don't wanna see anyone. Martine rang earlier. She slept in late but is ok. I thanked her and took dogs out for a wee on the green after put phone down to her. Ang hasn't rung for hours so it's been quiet. Last time she rang she moaned she hadn't got one lot of her tablets but I checked them before she had them so dunno what she's on about. I told her that and she put the phone down.

Bad day

Ang kicked off big style today. She refused to dogsit for my appointment and caused such a scene kicking and knocking my door after Martine arrived that I didn't want to leave her with the dogs. Ended up cancelling appointment and went for a couple of walks with Martine. She was ringing a shouting at me down the phone while Martine was here. After she went she rang for her meds which Martine had collected for me and later she rang asking me to bring some food over. Her usual...bread , butter, cheese and vinegar.

Another incident

Buster has got back to normal poos again. I starved him for 24 hours and things sorted themselves out. Martine came over Sunday and went out with me and Buster to the boat beach and around to the shops.Ang was stopping here last night but lost it around midnight and started yelling. She refused to leave and went to bed after about 30 mins of shouting. She was ok today till about 6pm then started getting angry. About 6.20 she started shouting and Buster had to be put in the bedroom. Finally managed to get her to leave about 6.50 with a right scene outside the front door. She was in a right state and fell into the neighbors garden. After she got up she knocked over my recycling bin as she went out the garden screaming. She rang shortly afterwards and asked me to bring some tobacco over. She also told me she won't dogsit Wednesday when I have an appointment.

Buster ill.

Buster woke me at 3.20 desperate to go out. He's got the runs bad so can't leave him with Ang at all because she can't get him out. Had planned to go see Martine to take her some tobacco but Ang will have to go now. Hopefully Buster will get over it quick and am starving him for 24 hours. Dainty is fine at the minute as she had a good poo when I took them up to railway station 7.30ish. Ang rang me at 6.15 as she saw my curtains open but is playing on her computer so don't know when I will see her. Update. Ang arrived at about 7.45 and asked me to fetch her computer back ago 8.00. Rang Martine at 9 and said we'd ring her later to say what time Ang would meet her. I went to the shops for Ang about 9.45 to get her some money and a few things. I then rang Martine and she said she was gunna try her bank. Fifteen minutes later she rang and said there was money in and she didn't need tobacco. Ang was relieved she didn't have to go and played games for a while. About 11 she said she was tired and went to bed here. Martine rang later and said she might come over the weekend. As I put the phone down to her Ang came in the lounge in a foul mood and started shouting at me saying I'd woke her up. She keep on for about 10 minutes and I told her she'd got to leave. She eventually went after about another 5 minutes. I then went out with the dogs again but Dainty refused to go and we ended up at the railway station again. Got back and 5 minutes after I'd got in Ang turned up at the door . She took the milk, cheese and ham leaving me with enough milk for two coffees. She came over later to collect her computer and I helped her over with the chair and set it up ...again. Martine rang just before Ang turned up so rang her back. Spoke to Ang on the phone and sorted out her script with the chemist Rang Ang and told her and she asked me to bring her mouse mat over and my milk bottle so she could give me some milk. Decided to get an hours kip before go to the chemist to collect script.

Dentist for Ang

Ang went to the dentists yesterday. I rang her at 6am and she came over just before 7. I walked her to the train at 7.50 with the dogs and saw her off. Dainty cried when she got on the train. She rang later and told me she had contacted Martine and so was going over to hers for a few hours. While she was with Martine she took her dogs into Boscombe and brought an electronic cigarette. She hasn't smoked a roll-up since she left here yesterday. She got back at roughly 5pm and stopped the night. I took Buster to the shops for his last walk to get some cider for Ang. Today has been rained off for dog walks other than first thing. Ang has been in a mood all day and got worse when a man put a ladder up to the flat above and Buster started barking. By 2.45 she started on me calling me names and shouting. Buster got upset and so had to put him in the bedroom til she left. Sheleft about 3.20 after collecting a few things up and shouting at me on and off. I took her laptop over and chair and set it up on the internet for her. She was still in a mood and asked for her key back and to let her know if I was taking the dogs out. Managed to leave the dogs while setting her laptop up for about 10 minutes without them howling.

Dog fight.

Saturday night at about 8.30 the dogs had a fight. Ang was stopping the night and she was playing ball with Dainty. Buster got jealous and flew at Dainty. All hell broke loose. I jumped up from the computer and managed to get them apart and Ang dragged Dainty snapping and snarling into the bedroom. Luckily neither of them had a serious injury. Buster had a small puncture on his nose and Dainty had a red mark on her front left paw but the skin wasn't broken. I think I came off worse with a bite on my left hand. Thankfully not too deep and it stopped bleeding after a few minutes. Was sore the next day though. It really shook Ang up and she was in quite a state for about an hour after. Today was quiet and Ang came on the morning walk to the railway station and dinner time to the backwaters. We went via the shops field and looped around through the 3 fields and back to the shops via the church hall. Ang was quite slow and stopped a lot along the way but she really enjoyed getting out. She went to hers about 5 to have a bath as she has an appointment tomorrow at the dentists. She rang a few times during the evening and just before she went to bed at about 9.50. I asked her to ring me at 6 in the morning when she get up. Hopefully the weather will be better tomorrow instead of the overcast sky and bit of drizzle we had today. Luckily it didn't spoil the dog walks and I took Buster for a third walk to the boatbeach about 6.45pm.

Crippled

Had a good weekend last week. Ang stopped and kept her drinking in hand so it was a quiet bank holiday. Wednesday had injection about 12.30 and by 4pm I was crippled. Could barely get the dogs out Thursday so they had to make do with railway station and the green outside front door. Friday was a bit better and by Saturday was able to get dogs on a long walk. Ang came Saturday lunch time and we went to the garage and Lidl via the sports field both ways. She's on a new inhaler since Friday but not getting any benefit from it yet and had to stop a lot. She's been eating well for quite some time now and is just making herself some pasta. Dogs are fine at the minute but Dainty has got to have a blood test in a couple of weeks to check her liver and kidney function because of the meds she's been on for a few years now. Gunna cost about 55 quid with transport cost there and back because she struggled last time I walked her there for her 6 month check up. Weather has got miserable again from the summer days we had a week ago. Stayed up late last night playing games and drinking coffee. Finally got to bed about 3.30am and got woke at 7 by Buster trying to get in bed with me.

Left alone

Ang came over yesterday and stayed a while. She was in quite a mood and ended up raging on me while we were out. She went home when we got back and rang up and apologised later. I got an early night and woke at 7 but stayed in bed and crashed out again until Ang rang just after 8. I went to the shops on first walk with the dogs after seeing what Ang wanted and taking some things over hers. About 12.30 she came over to dog sit while I went to an appointment. She made some pasta for herself while I was out. I got back and she went back over hers to wait while I had a coffee before we took the dogs out. We went down the backwaters and around the wasteland walking through to the boatbeach. She went ape when I said I didn't want to let Dainty go in the sea again as she had dried off and raged on me. I refused to walk with her and waited a while after she stormed back home. I followed about 5 minutes later and caught up with her just before the disabled home. She was still in a mode and went back to hers. I rang later to see if she still wanted me to move her dressing table and she apologised for shouting at me but said she can't help it. Then she started an argument about getting a car and slammed to phone down on me. She rang later and asked me to bring some food over and apologised again. Went over and talked for a while and then left so she could have a bath before the soaps. The dogs were silent when I got back so looking like they can be left for short periods now without Buster howling.

Another Monday

Had two visitors Friday and a quiet weekend with Ang. She came over Friday morning and stopped the weekend. She managed a walk Saturday and Sunday but kept having to stop. Jane came over Sunday night and stopped for an hour. Caught up on my sleep over the weekend and woke about 7 today. Had lots of phonecalls today but managed to get some peace taking dogs out with Ang. There was loads of other dogs out cos it was sunny and we made it to the hay meadow. Dainty managed to roll in a patch of burnt ground there and got covered in black ash. Came home to another phone call just as was about to put Dainty in the bath. By time I'd finished on the phone the water was almost cold so had to run more hot. Ang got in a right mood because of phone call but settled down later after she had a moan at me. She came on a second walk on the evening but ended up raging at me on the way home.

More upset

It's been quiet since Ang went home 3 or 4 days ago. She came over yesterday briefly but started shouting at me so had to leave. Today I went out with the dogs and she was coming round. I ended up letting her in and went to the shops on first walk instead so could get her some cider. After a while she started having a go at me but took herself off to bed. She woke about 7.30pm and started yelling at me from in the bedroom. I went in and told her she had to leave. She got up a few minutes later and really started because I was putting all her things into a carrier bag. She wouldn't go at first but after about 10 minutes of shouting she left. Buster had to be put in the bedroom because he started barking at her and getting really upset. When she'd gone I let him out and he brought me a ball and I played with him. He was really fired up. Dainty got really upset as well so I gave her some fuss to try and cheer her up. I've had to lock the door so she can't get in if she comes back round. Gunna have a bath in a bit and try and chill.

Judgement times.

It is now 14 days into the judgement period which began on 5/4/2013 and ends 4/5/2013. Events are shaking the world. I have remained silent and watched. Thatcher is no more and Britain divides again because of her. Repairing the damage she did to the world will take a generation if it ever happens. For days I was singing a rhyme sparked by the protest song from wizard of oz. "Ding dong the witch is dead, jump on her grave, dance on her head.". I attacked her using my chi for months years ago. Live television allows easy focus on an individual. Damn the delay of satellite though. It's harder to see the response and modify the focus accordingly to achieve optimum results. Possibly the effect was her down fall because her peers lost confidence in her. I witnessed her stuttering and confused at times because of it. Long term the result of the repeated attacks frazzled her brain. Undrugged by the government I would be doing the same to Cameron. I'm a warrior in chains. I guess humanity has a better plan than the current messiah. LOL. Ang went home today. She cancelled her dental appointment and got pissed and leary so had to get her to leave. I went into Poole for her before she went to get her new glasses. Completely did my head in picking them up. Late afternoon she rang and I went and got another bottle of cider for her. Martine came over later and stayed till 10.40.

RSPCA warning of abuse

Been quiet lately. Ang cut down on drinking and is eating again. Had an incident at the shop yesterday. Went down with dogs and raced round the shop gathering the few things ?I needed. On the way in a women banged into me. My schitzo head said she was dumping accidents/bad event energy on me. As the best cleaner I was ok with that as I'd just let my temple remove them when I got home. What happened next was worrying to me though. I got back to the counter with the things I wanted and her child in his pram strained to kick me. It stretched it's leg right out as I passed and wacked me in the shin then tried to speak to me. It let out a long string of baby babble. Not smiling giggles but as if it had done something funny but attempting to talk. I paid for my stuff and wondered on the way home why her kid wanted to talk to me. Knowledge of the mother comprises of 18 months ago she was reported to RSPCA for mistreating dogs. She got rid of them and I believe the child was attempting to get help as his home life is bad. I believe he is suffering but cannot report it as no-one would listen to such a tale.

Visitors

Saturday I had to get Ang to leave. Couldn't cope with her. Martine came round with her friend Jane on the evening and stopped for a while. Went over to Ang's after they left and she came back over. Had to take some pills to stop my twitch in my left hand and they kept me awake all night. Got the dogs out really early today and then managed to sleep til 1. Ang is being really good today. She's stayed in bed and isn't drinking yet but got the shakes bad. :( Been trying an experiment with the weather. Animal protein seems to increase the temperature whereas veg protein doesn't. Might explain why the idea of sacrificing animals to the sun god came from in Egyptian religion etc. An early messiah using meat intake to increase sunshine and religious leaders believed sacrificing animals was what the messiah was doing and confusion reigned. Each meal I've had since 6am has been animal/fish based so lets see what happens in 48 hours. Tuesday will let me know. Have avoided weather reports for last fortnight so don't know what is predicted by met office. Have been drinking quite a bit of coffee though, hence the rain. To maintain high rainfall I have to have a break from caffeine as the diuretic affect reduces after a period of constant intake so the rainfall eases. I can compensate by increasing amount of coffee per mugful but end up not sleeping well. Tuesday should warm slightly and sporadic light rain from 2 to 3 in the afternoon well into the evening with a warm night in comparison to lately. This applies to local weather not the whole of the UK which will prolly remain cold till Thursday or Friday. Possibly longer as it will take large amounts of animal protein to reverse the weather patterns in place.

Early alarm call

Ang has been a nightmare recently and caused me loads of grief. My twitch came back with a vengeance a few days ago and kept me up all night Wednesday night. Thursday had to make lots of phonecalls to organise getting some Orphenadrine and finally got some around 5.30. Ang spent most of yesterday in bed or drinking and giving me verbal abuse. Her mood changes from minute to minute. One minute she's really nice the next she's saying really nasty things or shouting at me. She went to bed really early and I was shattered so got to bed at 9.30ish. At some point Ang got up and woke me around 2 by shouting abuse at me from in the lounge. I got up and ended up slapping her across the face to shut her up. She's refusing to leave and I don't want to call the police to get her removed so have to endure abuse until she goes and crashes out. She doesn't even mention rehab any more so looks like she's gunna just keep on drinking.

Vodka nightmare

Been alright for a while. Ang been drinking less and eating more but 3 days ago she started on Vodka and I had to get her to leave 2 days ago. Yesterday she came over and it all went wrong and midnightish I had to throw her out because she was acting up. Today she stayed over at hers but I went to the chemist for her script so saw her when I took it over. Later she rang a few times, Once to take a lighter over and later to say she was going to bed. Took the dogs to the boat beach dinner time but later walk was rained off like yesterday.

1 samosa

I helped Ang back over with a few things last night. She was afraid to put her heating on and her flat was freezing. She was quite upset as well saying she was mentally ill. I got an early night with her so woke about 6. Day was alright but she was drinking. Thankfully she was quite upset so didn't get leary. She went to bed about 7.45 and I followed at 10. She hasn't eaten for days now although I took a few Indian snacks over two days ago and she ate a small samosa.

Manic monday

Have been on my own the last few days as Ang been over hers drinking. This morning I had to go and get her some money and cider and sort her script out. Took a few phonecalls but arranged for chemist to ring when it ready. About 3.30 Ang came over screaming and yelling that I hadn't got her cider and that I'd stolen her money. She really upset Buster and had to put him in the bedroom. After I explained I'd taken it over hours ago she left after saying I was mentally ill and slammed the door on the way out. She then yelled in the street that I needed to get the dogs out. After a coffee I went to the chemist with the dogs and collected her script. I brought it home and checked it was all there before taking it round to her. She was in bed but awake enough to say I ought to be locked in Broadmoor. Can't get Martine on the phone. She isn't answering her landline and her mobile is saying it is not possible to connect you. I hope she is ok as I think she lost on the horses Sunday and might be upset. An old friend Skyped me this morning and managed to chat for a while and he gave me his new mobile number.

Two triads.

Couldn't sleep last night. Got up at 1.30ish and decided to cut beard off as spring is here. Spoke to Texan during night while playing games/drinking coffee and he says watch the dow today. Date is special today 1/3/2013. Two thirteens in it and two pairs of triads can be made sharing the 2. Ang woke at 4.30 and we put news on. America spending cuts happen today so Texan prolly right. Ang got me to go to the garage during the night so took dogs. Had Dainty off the lead for most of the walk until got near main road. Buster had a poo but Dainty only had a few wees. Fed them when I got back and then they both crashed out. Ang started giving me grief about 7.15ish and by 8.20 I told her she must leave at 9 if she doesn't stop. She fell asleep at 8.35 for half an hour and woke up in a much better mood. Took dogs out to railway station about 10 and rang chemist about Ang's script 11.30. Started drinking water again as totally fed up with all the coffee. Well by my reckoning Europe gunna take another hit and America gunna slide because of paying for Europe made game and paying America for internet. Of course everyone knows these two things gunna happen now. Don't know how long gunna be able to maintain systems causing decline at current rate. UK gunna be less harmed now because housing value now is closer to spending per month. Closer because energy charges still keep it in the red. Ang started yelling at me about 1 while I was trying to sort her script out for her. She was demanding I immediately went and got her more cider. Buster got really upset and had to put him in bedroom til she stopped yyelling. I had to contact upton surgery because of strange answer machine message at ours. They said surgery was open but tried them for forth time and still got weird message saying surgery was closed because glynn couldn't find the keys. WTF. Went to shop on my own and got bottle of cider for Ang. Wanted her to go but she refused to leave. I let her stay because she calmed down a bit but carried on giving me grief only quieter. She continued for ages and at 2.12 I told her to leave or I would phone the police. She agreed to leave after her drink and fag. I got hold of chemist at 2.20ish and they can't find Ang's meds so agreed to ring me back when they found them. Chemist rang and said prescription had been collected yesterday. I said we hadn't collected it then after they told me to get back onto surgery Ang told me I phoned a taxi for it yesterday. WTF2 Why did Ang tell me to sort it out for her if she knew I sent a taxi yesterday. Wish I'd remembered but was in bits about letter had that day. Today is crud. Managed to get a few hours sleep and Ang woke me about 7. Got dogs out and she started on me again. I couldn't take any more and managed to get her out after slapping her because she was being so abusive. She pleaded to stay and promised not to keep on at me but I can't cope with her abuse when she's been drinking and refused to let her stop. She got really abusive as she left and made a swing for me which started Buster off and she yelled at the door but thankfully went. Thats wot 8 litres of cider over 18 hrs does to her. :( Fed dogs after she had left and then did this after making a coffee and drying some tobacco in the microwave. Had to have my inhaler as breathing got bad because of stress. Rang Martine 9ish and told her what had happened. She not been good lately but was just cooking herself chicken and chips. We talked for a bit and she said she'd ring tomorrow. Afterwards I realised I hardly eaten today so got a slice of bread out freezer to go with veggie sausage, egg and chips. Gunna cook it when chilled after coffee. Hope Ang is not too cold at hers as her heating not been on and takes ages to warm her place up. It was hyperthermic over there the last time I went over about a week ago. Luckily it not been as cold since Tuesday. Hopefully will be able to go to bed when I'm ready tonight and catch up on sleep I missed yesterday. So much for 2 13's in date today, was well unlucky for me.

Horsemeat scandal

Ang has cut her drinking down and been eating for over two weeks now. It's been great. She is depressed though because her back is still bad and she keeps having to stop if we go out for a walk. She has to stop 3 times just to get behind the railway track. Martine came over yesterday. She arrived about 4 and stayed til the end of Eastenders. Had bad letter yesterday but passed it on to social worker to sort out. She gunna update me today. Ang has become a veggie so I've had to eat all the meat things we had in the freezer. As a consequence my guts have been in turmoil. Couldn't face the liver so cooked it for the dogs. Couldn't give them the beefburgers or spag bol as both had onions in them. Thankfully there is only ARK or veggie food in the house now :) so weather may get back under my control. I woke at 5.50 today for some reason so got up and took dogs out for a wee. Horsemeat scandal still raging. I wonder if pet owners realise they feeding horse to their dogs and cats. I think many pet owners would be gutted if they realised. What choice is there though. I think all commercial petfood is a mix of horse and meat unfit for human consumption. Wonder if feeding such crap meat to dogs and cats is the reasons so many get growths, lumps and tumors in old age. Just a thought. You look in the ingredients on a tin and it just say animal protein or derivatives. Shudder to think wot goes in it. Got to order some more for dogs today or tomorrow. Need mixer mainly but am trying to build up stocks of cans so got some reserves in.

Wuss pants

Got up at 8.45 today when Buster woke me. Got dogs to shops for first walk as was so late. Ang came over today and went to bed complaining of stomach ache. She seemed in terrible pain and I got in touch with NHS direct. They rang and she spoke to them. Then a doctor rang and Ang told me they were going to send a doctor out. She was sick several times and had to strip sheet off bed and wash two pillows. Couldn't put them on to wash til dogs had finished their supper as Buster stands back from his dish and barks at the washing machine in an I'm scared way.

Crying time

Finally got to look at pictures of cobwebs grown over last 7 years. 1 good example and one reasonable one and a group that needs further study. Some of the photos were rubbish because of poor camera skills. Am annoyed with myself as am never gunna repeat this experiment in a place I live in. It harmed me, my wife and my dogs and took 7 years of my life to complete. Yet I now have a photo to challenge sceptics with. Cool. Better make sure I back it up. Tears of joy tonight. Praise be for picture 57 :).

Bliss

Got to bed at 10.30 last night. Woke just before 8. Sorted dogs out and had a coffee. Rang Ang at 9 and she was upset. Got dogs to railway station and came back and had an egg butty. After a couple of coffees and doing washing up I cleaned windows in the lounge. Took ages and didn't get my bath till gone 1. Ang rang just after I got out the bath and asked if I could go down the shops so dogs ended up going with me for their second walk. Dainty was jumping up catching snowflakes as it was showing quite heavy. It settled a little on the grass and Buster go ice balls on his two front feet and he stopped walking at one point until I pulled them off. Got back and took dogs up to Ang's with her stuff but she got Angry after about 5 minutes and I had to leave. She was very upset and saying she was scared of herself. She rang a little while later and said she was going to bed. About 3.30 Martine rang and she'd been to a cafe for a roast chicken dinner and was busy cleaning her garden of dog mess. Had Bliss on most of the day. America gunna be hit every month now Virgin sold out to an American company. Multiplies effect of my outgoings because Americas GDP is so much greater than the UK's which was the tax location of Virgin. Thanks Richard. :)

Visitor

Martine came over about 6.30pm yesterday. She stayed til 10.48 so rang her later to make sure she got back safe. Ang kept ringing me all the time she was here but was angry and drunk so wouldn't let her come round. Finally got to bed at just after midnight. Ang rang me at 8 this morning just after I'd woken up. She came round later on and I went to shops to get her some cider. She got loud and had to leave accusing me of going to bed with her sister. Graham popped over to collect some painkillers for Helen. The rain was bad so went for a kip in the afternoon and Ang rang and woke me about 4.30. Got up and had a coffee then took dogs to the boat beach. Came back and shortly afterwards went over to tell Ang the tuna salad was nearly ready as her phone was going straight to voicemail. She came over a liyttle later but didn't want to wait til I'd finished the tuna salad. She said she'd lost her phone so will go over in a bit and try and find it for her and see if she wants me to take her some food over. Hopefully gunna get a bath later but not in the mood now with the grief from Ang. Phoned Martine earlier and she doesn't really wanna come over again because of Ang. She doesn't want the grief but told her it was Ang's problem not hers. She's got her mum coming over Monday or Tuesday and she's fretting about it.

Wake up call

Got to bed 9.30ish last night. 2.45 Ang rang to ask me to get her some cider at the garage so I got up and took the dogs out for a wee and made a coffee. Had coffee and a smoke the Ang came over and I went to garage. Came back and had another coffee and Ang went home about 5 to go to bed. Lucky her. I wanted to be up early but 2.45 taking the piss. Looks like it going to piss it down today so will be able to catch up sleep later as won't have to take dogs out for walks. Dunno if Martine will come over if it raining so prolly be a lonely day on my own. Might get chance to clean lounge windows today if walks rained off. Windows aren't too bad as did them a while back. Took some photos of positions of cobweb formations around flat before cleaned it. Haven't studied them yet but visually the left corner of the lounge above the window was best d-web example. Cobwebs extended a line visible in damage that was in the corner. Very satisfying to find amongst the ones that had formed. :) Hope pictures came out well. 7 years for that experiment. Glad it's over and can clean flat up again. Would have left experiment running a while yet but everyone was on my case about my flat. Jesus people. I was employed as an industrial cleaner once. I do know how to clean. Trying to explain to others it's a massive experiment that has been running for 7 years is a bit difficult. I have a theory and am attempting to prove it with evidence. My god is it taking years. :(.

Hectic week

All this week as been hectic. Ang had me running around like crazy. Wednesday was similar and Ang stayed the night. Thursday was chilled but Ang had to leave as she got funny. Today was a nightmare. Had horrible scene over her script. Ang left afterwards so I could sort it out for her and ended up having to take Buster to chemist as didn't want Ang back round to dogsit. Took her script over and some Tuna sandwiches and later some sugar, coffee, milk and her kettle. She rang later and screamed at me that I'd stolen her lighter. Just before the soaps started I rang her and she'd fallen asleep and had calmed down. Martine supposed to be coming over tomorrow. Dunno if Ang will be sober or not though as she's drinking like a fish at the minute. Gunna get an early night as am knackered both mentally and physically.

Manic Monday

Tried to get graphics tablet installed for Martine last night but think I've used the wrong driver as the pen not working on her machine. Grr. Ang turned up at 6am this morning looking for some milk so I got up and took dogs out for a wee. She rang later and asked me to go shop for her. Was really in a bad mood this morning. Went to shops on first walk with dogs after feeding them to get Ang some cider and filter tips. Hit the shops just as all the kids was about so couldn't tie dogs by the community garden but had to go past loads to get to the road sign. Hate it when have to go to the shops with the dogs at kiddie time. Ang came over later to sit with dogs while I went to get her script and sort out on-line access to doctors surgery. Decided to take Buster with me so Ang just had Dainty to look after. Not that she needs it but prefer not to leave her alone. Had to speak to IT bloke on surgery phone but when got home it didn't work. Rang surgery and got put through him and he had to generate new codes and give me info over the phone to set mine and Ang's access up. Let's hope it last more than 3 requests like last time before get access denied again. Ang needed me to go into Poole so caught the 12.35 train. Specsavers couldn't repair the frames of her glasses so came back on the 1.14. Got back and had a coffee and then took the dogs to the railway station because Dainty refused to go in the other direction. Got back made us both an egg sandwich. After a while Ang wanted to go to sleep and as I was shattered we went and laid on the beds. After 10 minutes she got back up and I got up 15 minutes later as couldn't sleep cos of coffee. I took Buster to the boat beach and round the back way to the wasteland. Had to put buster back on the lead as there was a couple with a springer on one of the paths by the wasteland. There was a bloke with a dog lead a little further on and he asked me if I'd seen a red lurcher. Told him I hadn't and walked on to the shops to get cider, coffee and milk. Got back and Ang was ok for a while but 5ish she started getting funny and got really angry when she finished her drink and had to pack her stuff away to go. I helped her carry some but on the way around the corner she spilled stuff out of her black back and squealed really loud. I took the things I had into hers and she followed me in. Went back to mine but 5 minutes later she opened the door and started shouting about her phone. Buster went mental and she eventually went after about a minute when finally convinced her that I didn't have her phone. Shut and locked the door and put kettle on and started making a coffee. Heard a knock at the door and it was the police. The officer tried to barge in and nearly got had by Buster but thankfully he listened and let me put him in the bedroom. Dainty was all over the bloke and the second guy left to go to Ang's. I told him what happened and he took my name down. Ang phoned while I was talking to him and said Lee was at her door. I told her it was the police, several times, and that she better let them in. Told her I had to go, hung up and finished talking to the bloke. He got on the radio and left shortly afterwards. Ang phoned a short while later and accused me of phoning the police but after a while and several more phone calls she settled down. Apparently though she's gunna ring Juliet tomorrow and tell them I'm getting ill again. Don't I just love Manic Mondays.

Cleaning house

Spent last few days cleaning. Did quite well as haven't got many injuries on hands thankfully. Flat is starting to look reasonable again. Have managed to get Ang to take a lot of her stuff back to her flat and it was hard work with her moaning and getting angry every time I asked her to help. Have still got lots to do but am going to have a break now for a while. Need to get lounge windows done to improve to light coming into the lounge and increase the effect of circuit so increasing the effect on the local population and decreasing crime rates further. If I'd have got the colour scheme right in the bedroom originally I would be 8 years into effect. As it is the system is only about 12 months into full effectiveness. Got to repaint some of it and add purple to effect spirituality of people but won't be doing that til the summer so can have windows wide to get rid of paint fumes. Ang came over yesterday and stayed the night. She drank during the evening and woke about 3 am. I heard her leave at some point and woke just before 8 to an empty flat. She rang about 8.15 to wake me up and had a moan at me. For some reason she took her laptop back to hers but didn't take it's power supply. I rang her a bit later and asked if she wanted anything down the shops so at some point I've got to get her some cider. She said she was going to bed so will leave it til later to go to shops. Am fed up now. Hope Martine comes over today but can't ring her til about 12. Had two deliveries from Sainsbury in last 3 days. First one 3 days ago only half the dog food and a quarter of the mixer arrived so had to do a second order the next day but still only a quarter of the mixer arrived. Ended up with just over half the dog food and half the mixer. Grrr. Got some food in now though so eating enough again. Yesterday had a banana and cornflakes for breakfas, a vegetable burger and Linda McCartney sausage with bread and butter later and finished the day off with a veg curry made from a packet of microwave veg, baked beans and an onion fried in a little butter. First time in ages went to bed not feeling hungry. :)

Last post

I guess it is easy to fall into the trap of debt. There should not be traps in life. I jumped into the trap to prove a point. A messiah works differently to other people. So the trap reverses and catches the banks. God will not help them because it is helping me. The outcome is being felt and will get stronger over the next 4 and a half years. Then the rate of decline will maintain at a fixed level instead of the small increase that is currently occuring. This has a two fold effect. It needs to be shown, in one of the ways I can, that I am capable of this. The other reason is that a unprecedented increase in banks profits would not allow me to say "I'm wrecking the banks". In addition the UK weather is being manipulated to have highly increased rainfall. The climate has been accelarated in as much as I can to increase global warming and facilitate the increase of extreme weather events. This is to ram home the point to the world that you are not taking it seriously enough yet. Roll on the sequence days to come this year. The time of judgement.

Fuel poverty.

Got an early night last night. Ang was drinking yesterday so didn't come over. Martine did though and was wacked after a long time talking to her. So many of her ideas are hard to accept. I kept having to bite my lip to keep calm. Wanted to argue with her ideas but didn't want the grief. She rushed out for train when we looked up live train info on sw trains site as there was a delayed train due. Rang her later and found she had to wait for 20 mins so think site was wrong. Woke just before 6 so got up and watched news for a while. Ang hasn't rung this morning but dunno if she awake yet. Took her some tobacco yesterday and she had gone to bed because was feeling sick. Got loads of bills paid yesterday and today. Gunna take another 4 weeks before can complete paying them. Worked out I prolly in fuel poverty. It don't seem like it though. Compared to some in the world I got it made :).

Rise and shine.

Ang rang me at 8 this morning. Told her I was gunna have a lay in for a while. She said I needed to get the dogs out. I went back to bed but she rang 3 more times in the next 10 minutes until I answered the phone the third time she rang. I was forced to get up because by then the dogs had been disturbed too much. She said to me she was going back to bed because she was tired and I thought "So am I and that's why I was hoping for an extra half hour in bed". She rang later and I asked if she was coming over but she was really depressed and going to bed. I tried ringing a few hours later but her phone was off. Tried her door about 5 but no response. Tried it again about 9 but still no answer. Bit worried now as she got a lot of medication over hers. Hope she doesn't wake up in the night and ring me. I need a good nights sleep.

Peaches

Ang rang just after 8 this morning ten minutes after I got up. She came over after I'd been out with the dogs to the railway station. I swept and mopped the kitchen and hall after took dogs out for their second walk. Got the front door and the walls of the hall sortov done. Drank lots of coffee to get in the mood for cleaning. Had argument with Ang because she left her clothes all over the side of the bath and when I said something she flipped out. She decided to go home again so had the flat to myself. Finished off the hall after she went and then had summut to eat. Ang came over for some milk and I rang her a few times. When she came over she apologised for having a go at me. Went over at one point to put mattress she had in the lounge back on her bed for her and stopped and chatted for five minutes. Locked dogs in and they were quiet when I got back. Ang watching Call the midwife tonight and arranged to ring her when it finishes. Turned heating off at 8pm and planning on an early night. Going to have one last coffee and some tinned fruit before bed. Ang not had anything to eat today but a slice of toast and marmalade.

Drinking again :(...updated

Got up at 8 after Ang woke me up. Took dogs to the shops for their first walk. Got back and had a coffee then took Buster to chemists to get Ang's script. Got back and played games for a while then took dogs out again. Dainty would only go to railway station so wasn't out long. When I got back I had to go to bed. Woke about 2 hours and had argument with Ang. Afterwards she said she was going back to hers and left 20 mins later. She rang about 15 minutes after that and asked me to go and get her some cider and a lighter. I agreed after she went on for a bit saying she just wanted to chill out and wouldn't go on a binge. Left Dainty at home and took Buster as she didn't want to come over and sit with dogs. Took cider over to Ang and she gave me a pouch of tobacco to dry out in the microwave but said she was in no rush for it. Went home and found a repeat of Dr Who on TV. Watched that and then put cup of water and tobacco in microwave for 2 mins 46 secs. Made coffee with water and took tobacco over to Ang. Came back and put laptop on and now gunna stay up all night playing Land Leven, smoking, drinking coffee and eating. Gunna make it warm, wet and, if I eat lots of veg or baked beans, windy locally. 2 1/2 days warning. Am going to catch up on all the news I have missed lately because have been avoiding it. Have been avoiding TV lately. Cabbaged my head seeing Algeria massacre. Always terrorists or crazed gunmen when I lose blood. This is my 500th post. A milestone. Update. Decided to go to bed at 20 past midnight. Had music channel on most of the night. Now am pissed off :( Hate other peoples choice in music combinations.

Another mistake

Been quiet last few days. Martine came over a couple of days ago and picked up some flooring Ang had at hers. Jane drove her over and she didn't stop. Have just about rcovered from the shock of the siege in Algeria. Two days prior to it Buster jerked on the lead and I smashed my leg into a wooden stump on the morning trip to railway station. It bled like a bitch. Can only just stand Dainty rubbing against it now. Expected loss of life but not as much as happened. Haven't wanted to blog much since and why only been posting every 4 days or so. Been trying to lose myself in facebook games. Trying to sort out Ang getting on internet at hers now she had windows fixed today and can afford to heat hers again. Hopefully have got cable and connector I need to run aerial usb from kitchen to lounge. Her flat was freezing when went over to test signal from my router. Gotta mop the floors today at some point. Will hopefully get on it after take dogs out for second walk. Got to Lidl with Ang and dogs yesterday to get few things. Trying to use up all food we got in though as had some in freezer for about 3 months so it needs using up. Ang still not drinking :).

Two weeks abstinence

Had a quiet few days. Ang still not drinking but struggling with her feelings. I went to Pokedown yesterday but had to get the bus from the Lansdowne as there weren't any trains from Bournemoth. Did loads of brisk walking and got really cold waiting for train at Bournemouth on the way back. Got home after being out for 3 hours and then took dogs out. Had to come back after got to shops because was in terrible pain from my right hip. Got an early night and woke this morning with it still aching. Luckily it not anywhere near as bad as yesterday and got dogs behind the railway track for their first walk. There was still lots of snow on the grass and both had a great time running around in it and for once Buster was play fighting with Dainty which really put me in a good mood watching them have so much fun. Ang seems better this morning but it's the evenings that she having the most problems with. She got a counciling appointment next week though which hopefully will help her. Am really proud of her as it 2 weeks today since she went into hospital after having her last major drink. :) Thankfully the cream the doctor gave her is helping ease pain of her back and she managing to do more each day. She going to try to get to Lidl today to do some shopping as she needs some food as she is eating again. :)

Helicopter crash

Yesterday Ang went to appointment and did a little shopping in Poole. She rang me from the train and I went to meet her with Buster. She could barely walk and it took over 20 minutes to get back from the station. Got to bed about 10.45 last night leaving Ang playing Solitaire Blitz. She woke about 7 this morning and I got up at 8. She managed to get an appointment with her Dr this morning and has just left by taxi. Had 2 coffees this morning and watched news. It's nothing but helicopter crash on BBC now. Sky the same. Currently they saying 2 died. The thing that has got me most was the speed of response of emergancy services. Praise be to those heroes.

3 days together.

Martine came over two days ago and we had a laugh playing a game with songs on youtube. Yesterday me and Ang played a similar one all day long til after midnight. Ang was up at 6ish this morning and I got up just after 7. Visitors didn't arrive by 11 so rang and found they not coming til 12 tomorrow. Well annoyed. Ang still not drinking and is enjoying days again. She got an appointment this afternoon in Poole.

Vets soon.

Been quiet last few days. Managed to get Martine to help clean Angs flat. Ang been staying with me as she not drinking. She managed a walk to the backwaters today with me and the dogs. Her mood is lifting even though we broke. Buster got to go to vets as soon as I got money over his lump on his foot. It's not bothering him any more but hopefully get appointment Tuesday. Dainty needs a check up as well but will have to take her in taxi as walk is too far for her. Paniced to get her medication but only just ran out of last bottle this morning. Contacted SW about ATOS and she sorted it out for me. Had all 3 bills in for this quarter. Gotta find £550 quid now to pay all the bills, money for vets, dogfood and live. This gunna be some fancy juggling.

Home

Got to bed early last night after visiting Ang. Rang hospital 8.30ish to see how she had been overnight. They were doing some blood tests and told me to ring back at 1. Arranged for Helen and Graham to bring her home and she got to mine at 4ish. She's agreed not to drink so am letting her stay til can get social to visit or until she drinks. She says she feels terrible and was wretching shortly after getting here. She regrets eating at hospital before she left as it's made her feel sick again. 15 mins after being here she went to bed with a sick bowl.

Hospital

Visited Ang several times yesterday and she shouted at me one for tidying up at hers. She came around about 4ish and came in as I'd forgotten to lock the door. She was sober and really distressed. She asked to stay here and after a while I agreed. She went to bed and I went and collected her medication and tobacco. She had two lorazepam when I got back and was ok for about 20 or 30 minutes. She then got up and went hysterical. She started throwing things off the table and shouting. She refused to go and so I dragged her out and deposited her and her stuff on my doorstep and locked the door. She went back to her flat but returned this morning about 9ish. She begged for help saying she been throwing up blood. I let her in and got a bowl. She threw up almost immediately and eventually she agreed we should ring out of hours. They sent car ambulance who assessed her and they requested a normal ambulance and she left with them. She really struggled getting out to the ambulance. I rang hospital earlier but she not been seen yet. Drinking coffee and smoking. Wish could have left dogs to go with her. Tried Sonya but she unable to get to hospital and wait with her.

Police again!!

Had to call police again because of Ang yesterday. She had a spare key of mine and let herself in just after I called police because she was shouting and banging on door. The policeman made her give me the key and leave. Spent the day on phone to people and getting her medication sorted out. Ended up having to send taxi for it as didn't want her here dogsitting. Took some soup, tangerines, cider and complan over to her when medication had been delivered. Managed to get dogs out twice yesterday and finally got to bed at 8pm after feeding dogs early. Woke at 4.20 and stayed up for hour and a half but went back to bed. Woke again at 9.15ish and rushed round getting dogs sorted. Knocked on Angs door to get her up because her new tv was being delivered but no response. Got dogs out to garage and got some blue rizla. Came back and Ang walked in about 5 mins after I got back because I'd forgotten to lock the door. Her tv had arrived and she wanted me to get her some money and cider. I agreed after a while she got nasty and shouted a lot and finally left after repeated requests. I went to shops and got cider with the dogs and took it up to her. She got nasty again and I left after asking her if she wanted her tv set up. Remembered to lock door on way in and had second cup of coffee. Dogs are fine now till late afternoon so can relax a bit.

Happy new year.

Ang got leary new years eve 11ish for about 20 to 30 mins. Luckily she settled down by midnight and we saw the new year in. I left her up and went to bed. I woke about 8.20 and got up, sorted dogs out and had a couple of coffees. Took dogs to railway station and then made Ang a cuppa and she got up. Took dogs to boatbeach 12.30ish and walked around wasteland to the shops. Spent £15 which only got me half a carrier bag of stuff and a bottle of cider. Got dogs back and made Ang half a cream cheese bagette. About 4 Ang came out with me and the dogs and we went behind the railway track. She had to stop several times and rest going and coming back. She's not been out for over seven weeks except to have an xray. During the evening she got really nasty and late she started shouting. I went to bed about 11 and she carried on sporadically for about 2 hours. Then she came to bed and got back up after about 5 minutes of shouting at me while in bed. I heard a crash after about a minute so got up thinking she'd fallen. She was standing by the television and the ornaments and some christmas cards were on the floor behind the tv. I said what ya doing and went over. She said I smashed em. She started shouting and swearing and I slapped her and told her to get out. She went over to sofa and started to roll a fag. I told her to pack her stuff and get out. She refused and got leary again. So I put the dogs in the bedroom. I said I'm gunna call the police and she said I need the phone to ring an ambulance I've taken an overdose. I told her to use her mobile and she did. As soon as she put the phone down she grabbed her medication bag and tried to take some of what she just told the ambulance she'd overdosed on. I took her medication off her and she went mad. I managed to get it in the kitchen cupboard out of her reach but she went mad again and I had to fend her off. I got back into the lounge and was gasping for breath. She followed me in and attacked me. I kicked her away in panic because I couldn't breath and got into the bathroom. I called the police and waited. The ambulance arrived first and shortly after the police. Ang leary and taken away in the ambulance and the police took some notes. After they had all gone I took the dogs out for a wee and went and laid down on the bed. I had two phonecalls from a local number with no-one talking and then about 3.30 the police turned up again trying to find Ang's key. Couldn't find it here and they left after making me go through events again and telling me I need to clean up my flat. Couldn't sleep after all that so put news on and went on facebook. Made a couple of coffees then had to go and settle Dainty after a nightmare. Now it's 6.20 and dogs need to go out at 8 and got visitors at 10.45. Got no idea if Ang ok or not or whether she in hospital or police station. Loverly start to 2013