Last night

Stayed up til after midnight last night. Ang stayed up a little longer. Woke about 8 and got dogs to railway station after a couple of coffees. Ang had been up since 5 and managed to have complan, soup with some bread and a salmon sandwich today. Be glad to see the back of this year but judgement time gets nearer. Less than 100 days to go to the start. Gunna see new year in with Ang. Rang Mum today and will ring sister later. Martine picked her computer up today. Thankfully no problem doing it, just took a long time. Made 4 resolutions. Two easy, two hard so hopefully will manage to keep some of them. No alcohol, no fags, less coffee, more cleaning.

Sisters

Left Ang watching TV last night and didn't wake till 8.30ish. Ang stayed in bed and I got up fed dogs and got them to the railway station. Came back and went on computer for an hour but got mega headache and felt sick so went to bed after taking a couple of painkillers. Woke at 1ish and felt better. Watched news for a while and woke Ang about 2.30. She couldn't believe it was so late and got up. She had a complan after a cup of tea and then I took the dogs down the boat beach and round to the shops. Got a few things at shop and later went and got a box meal for Ang from the chinese. Martine came over at 7.30 after ringing and saying she'd be here by 6.30. Not long after she got here she stormed out after having an argument with Ang over her brother. I calmed Ang down then took Buster to the boat beach. Martine was by the disabled home by her bike and walked with me and explained why she got so angry. On the way back she went off to the shops and then back to station to go home. I got back and told Ang. I then fed the dogs and tried to watch the rest of Holby but couldn't concentrate. Might stay up with Ang tonight as got lots of sleep today.

First laugh in a long time.

Ang kept me up most of the night and about 2am we had an argument and her keeping the light on. Thankfully though we sorted it out when she got me up about 8.20. She not eaten much today and been on her computer quite a bit. I had conversation with friend in America and told her from next month my income goes up by roughly $2000 a year hopefully. Seems that's the amount extra tax middle America will pay because of fiscal cliff. I laughed when I heard that coincidence. Gods a joker.

Dr Who

Ang was up most of the night and I kept waking up. Heard the rain lashing down during the night. Ang got me up at 8 and I was grumpy for a bit until got dogs out. She made me a coffee which put a smile on my face. Had two then took dogs to railway station. Ang had a complan for breakfast and later a banana. We watched TV for a while and I took Buster to the shops to get milk and butter. Came back and middayish Ang had some chicken soup and bread. I had my dinner about 2.30 and after walking dogs I had a kip. Woke at 4.30 by Ang and then watched Dr Who. Not usual quality of a Christmas episode but a good start. Had summut to eat and went on facebook for third time today. Gunna spend rest of the day facebooking and chilling. Hopefully Ang will sleep tonight after she watched Corrie and Downton.

Tonights the night

Woke at 6 and got up as chest was bad. Went over to Ang's at 8 and helped her take medication and inhalers. Phoned surgery to request morphine script and check weekly script was in. Rang chemist and got to check after 1.30 if morphine script arrived. Got dogs to railway station and then posted some more tunes on facebook and chatted to friend in Denmark. She celebrates Christmas tonight and has lots to do. Doesn't look like am gunna get to Lidl today so prolly go to the boat beach later. Not going to get Dainty meds. Hoping got enough to last til just before New year. Will prolly have to take Buster as hes made his foot sore and is in a Buster collar to shop him getting at it. Dainty is in hers still as she won't leave her elbows alone but she is managing some time out of it now. Had 3 coffees today and managed to get Ang to drink some milk. Need to get her some complans when go to the chemist.

Lay in.

Woke late today. Spent morning posting songs on facebook. Saw Ang twice. She glad away from dogs but really grumpy still. She just drinking and was being sick when went over last. Timed it right to get a container for her to be sick in. Left after chatted for a bit when she became abusive and started having a go at me. Spoke to sister online but she vanished mid chat. Also spoke to a guy from India for first time in ages. Gunna pass him some lyrics as he writes music and plays guitar.

Eastenders

Managed to get Ang to eat a banana and a muffin earlier when went over. Spent most of afternoon in bed trying to get over headache. Going to try and get an early night tonight. Think I listened to too much music on youtube this morning or too much time on computer. Ang sleeping. Just went over and checked on her when she didn't answer phone. Got a few things at shops earlier after taking Buster to the boat beach. Dainty didn't want to come. Didn't manage to get any more cleaning done and can't be bothered now. Remembered to open bedroom curtains though today. Gotta get the bedroom circuit pumping. Just a shame a neighbor has a non ARKist mural in the same block. For them. Gunna get pissed off by Eastenders now. lol

Sky news today..updated

Woke at 7.15 and got up at 7.30. Took dogs out and made a coffee after had fed them. Ang rang at 8 to tell me to get up and ring Dr and her appointment to cancel. Then she rang back and accused me of stealing £30 off her. I put the phone down really pissed off. Rang Dr and talked to receptionist and results won't be ready til after 1.30. Can't tell Ang as her phone switched off. Watched sky news earlier and had a story about a woman given an asbo for yelling at her husband. We aint got a asbo just a contract of expectations. Am listening to BBC news now. Noticed in the bath last night that I really hurt my left shin a few days back when bashed into the table. Got a right scrape on it. :( World better not end at 11.11. Got too much to do today. At some point gotta get Ang over to sit with dogs so can go and get Dainty's medication.

Buster upset...updated

Ang had 3 glasses of cider after she got back from xray and then started giving me grief. I stuck it for a while but by 5ish I was fed up and stressed. She got really angry as she was leaving and made a swipe for me which really upset Buster but thankfully she went. Had summut to eat as soon as she'd gone and she rang while I was cooking it. Rang her back after meal and went over to switch her TV on and pick up her key. Had a bath after ringing her to tell her and that I'd ring her when I got out. She rang while I was in bath but luckily had taken phone into bathroom. Rang her back when got out of bath. She asked me to ring her appointment tomorrow as she can't get transport. Talked until she got nasty so I put the phone down. She rang about half hour later and she complaining in terrible pain all day and that she was going to bed. Now it's 10.30 and I'm knackered...mentally and physically. It's always the same from Ang. I'm not a messiah. I'm just a paranoid schitzophrenic. Mentally ill. Sick. Twisted in the head. etc etc. There will never be peace in my household until it is proven. The only way to prove it is go through years of court action and I want a life. I have spent years already in your courts, your prisons, your psychiatric wards. You expect me to trust your laws and systems any longer. I trust in god and am getting exactly the weather I want in UK, although it's a little cool and working on that. I'm getting the accelaration of climate warming. The collapse of financial systems and world economies. If the world gunna keep struggling I'm happy to carry on. Weather bit is not actually true. Every time I warm it up I get more rain than I want. Think I'll have to try harder on getting warmth without rain, if that is possible this time of year. If I was a gambler I'd bet on a sunny christmas day locally. Maybe one or two light showers. Suppose that forecast is out already. Grrr

Blandford road flooded.

Woke Ang at 11 and then spoke to her on phone. Got on with rearranging flat back to how it was and got a bit of cleaning done. Stopped for breakfast and got interupted by someone trying to get me to make investments. Talked to him about my beliefs and I advised him to go to www.arkdoorway.org.uk and read the current message from god when I found out he was a religious person. Didn't have time to talk as my toast breakfast was ready. Tried to ring him back but he had with-held his number. Ang came over about 1.15 and got ready here to go for her xray. Graham arrived and I took dogs out after she left at 2ish. Took dogs to garage and the Blandford road was flooded for about 300 yards to a depth of about a foot in soon places by Turlin road past the garage. Dainty had a fantastic time playing in all the puddles on the fields and I got a wet foot crossing road to the garage. Came back via the shops and got some milk for me and a bottle of cider for Ang. Took shopping home and then decided to take dogs to boat beach. Got back and was just making a coffee when Sonya turned up with Ang. She decided to stay a while and told me she has to ring her Dr tomorrow to get results. Gotta go down to shops in a while to get Ang another bottle of cider and some money and get myself some bread.

Grumpy start

Spoke to Ang late yesterday a few times. She was very angry but eventually told me she had taken loads of morphine because of pain. She asked me to go over and knock door at 11 tomorrow if she hadn't phoned before. I tried to get an early night but worrying that she's overdosed prevented me from sleeping for about an hour and a half so it was prolly 11.30 before I got to sleep. Woke just after 8 but struggled to get up and didn't get out of bed til Dainty came over and hassled me. She's been on the double bed in the bedroom when I've woken up the last two days which is great news. It will give her elbows a chance to heal if she's sleeping on the bed instead of on the tiles. Took dogs to railway station this morning in the rain and Buster played up dragging me and trying to go in all different directions. On the way back Dainty went to Petes and started eating the catfood he leaves out. I ended up having to fetch her because she wouldn't come in. Was really grumpy by the time got back in the dry. Saw water company taking meter readings yesterday and email arrived for me to send gas and electric readings in. Dreading the bills coming as trying to save up to do next dogfood shop. Only got roughly 60 days supply left. Gunna have second coffee to pass the time till go and hopefully wake Ang up.

Tired

Ang rang earlier and she sounded stoned. Think she's taken large dose of morphine to get out of pain. She said she going to bed and told her to give me two rings on phone if she wants owt. She rang later and I rang her back. Went to shops to get her cider and me milk. Dropped cider off and took dogs up to see her. Can't get anyone to go to hospital with her now as her friend dropped out and can't get dogsitter. On 3rd coffee today. Thankfully less than had in last few days. Dunno if gunna go out with dogs again as struggling to stay awake. Gunna make summut to eat and get a kip. Posted on RD site. Helen rang, Graham still gunna take her and assist her getting in hospital. Cool. Update...Ang got me to ring Social worker and Gateway and hospital to try and get help when she goes to hospital. Still haven't managed to eat yet but Ang can ask for a volunteer or porter when she gets to hospital. She got really angry and demanded her key back. Update 2...Sonya gunna meet her at hospital and go in with her. Hopefully now I can get summut to eat.

Police lie

Had lonely but peaceful day yesterday. Ang had me running about a lot and managed to get flat back functioning. Haven't fully connected desktop but got both my computers set up on big table again. Yesterday was presented with contract by social worker. Ang had to come over for a while and while she was here read it to her. It's pretty academic now as Ang stopping at hers for a while. She's left me with her key so she can be locked and but doesn't have to come to door. I can get in if you fails to answer phone as well. Cool. News today rem inds me of incident that changed my life. I came out of a Hawkwind concert at the age of 16. Massively hyped up from the concert I threw a can. Wrong I know. It hit a taxi. I was running for a train. I was arrested and the police said I was shouting and swearing. They called it affray and combined the shouting and swearing with the offence of throwing the can. I had to plead guilty to both and it made the event worse. I received a criminal record and could no longer become a fireman and follow my fathers service to the community. I also learnt some police lie.

Mad weekend

Went to bed about 10.30 Saturday night and after 10 minutes Ang got up again so I got up with her. We stayed up all night and she got me to rearrange flat so she could sleep in the lounge with Dainty because she won't come into the bedroom any more because of Buster. After I did it she said now she couldn't watch TV while on her computer. I became a diva after being up all night without having summut to eat and she left about 8.30am Sunday. Half hour later she came back in terrible pain after going to shops to get some cider. As it was early she asked me to go to the garage for her. When I got back she stayed all day and went home late on the night. I got to bed at 10.30ish and woke at 8. Got dogs out and she rang and said she'd ring me later as she was staying in bed a while. 9.15 she rang and asked me to go to shops for her. Decided to take dogs to shops and shop was packed. Got back and then had to show Ang how to work her TV, again ..lol. She got me to move her mattress into her lounge as she afraid of falling out of bed. Left her watching TV and that ?I'd ring regular to make sure she was ok. Got back to dogs after about 10 minutes and Buster hadn't been howling. Miracles do happen.

Sandy Hook

Got up at 8 today with Ang. Had walk to railway station after fed the dogs and had a couple of coffees. Ang had a complan after went to the shops to get some shopping. She went on her computer for a while and then went to lay down. I took dogs for second walk to the boat beach but Dainty was reluctant til she got there and got off the lead. She perked up and raced about a bit on the way round the wasteland to the shops. Got a card from two lads and their mum selling cards they had made from their garage. Watched BBC news some more when got back and saw interview with witnesses to the school massacre in Sandy Hook. I aint lost blood in last 48hrs so this one not my fault. Thankfully. Lets hope this is enough to make America reform it's gun laws.

Painful nights

Two days ago I saw a man with a pony at the shops. Had to take a detour with Buster around the community garden so he didn't get near it. Luckily the man put a young lad on the pony and trotted down the road so I could tie Buster up while I went in the shops. That night Ang woke about 3.30 in terrible pain. She got up and woke me at 6.30. We rang surgery just after 8 and Dr rang later and promised visit. Later he arrived and wants Ang to go for x-ray now she can get about a bit. He also got rehab people to contact her again and she going to appointment next week. I fetched another morphine script and she settled down after the 2nd dose. We stopped up and watched question time. Cameron is out of touch with public opinion according to views last night about UK drugs policy. Politicians are out of touch with public opinion because they refuse scientific data. Policies are based on 1931 legistalation updated in the 70's ignoring cultural changes. Leaving a product untaxed and in the hands of the black market is stupid. Hashish and marijuana is as complex and varied as wine and dates back a long long way. Opium has simular origins. The reality is that people like to get high. That will only be tackled by rewiring the human mind. Not criminalising traders and users. Would you be happy if you had to enter the black market world to purchase champagne. Something needs to change and the debate needs to occur not the refusal to discuss. Woke late today because was really dark because of rain. Had massive headache so drank some milk which eased it a bit. Ang got up and found some painkillers and was fit enough to get dogs out to railway station. Got wet but not soaked as rain had eased quite a bit. Helen phoned and wants me to help her set up an account on facebook for Graham and she said she'll ring later when she on her computer. On third coffee. Wet christmas or eat minimum for snow. Have loads to eat for a wet/warm/windy day after boxing day. Personally I think I should carry on soaking UK but wildlife iis struggling. Guess their what will be will be as the weather is based on choices I make. At the minute I'm yoyoing the temperature and rainfall....general levels over month being kept medium to high. Can't drop rainfall to low as will lose heat and freeze.

The waiting game

Ang managed 2 complans today and 2 cups of tea with sugar in without throwing up. Have been struggling all day today. The police are involved in murder as I said earlier in this blog and that it would be the next to be revealed. Still no response from BBC so another day of lies in the media continues. I die a little more and get a little more desperate. The longer it takes to get heard the less help I can give and the greater harm will be done by the processes I have started to try to wake humanity up.

Last chance lost

Two days ago Ang kept me up til gone 12pm then woke me up just after 6am. Had a rubbish day but contacted BBC again. No response so far just automated thank you. Announcement not gunna happen on 12/12/12 now :(. Don't think can cope with TV today so gunna spend most of it avoiding watching any news. Woke just after 8 today and got dogs to railway station. Not as cold today as yesterday and hopefully will eat well again today. Yesterday Ang had two complans but threw them up an hour later even though she'd had an anti sickness tablet before complans. She's stayed in bed today unlike yesterday when she was up all day.

Not funny

Ang was in a lot of pain yesterday and had difficulty getting about. Today I woke at 8 and got up. Ang stayed in bed but and I got dogs to railwat station after dustbin men had gone out of Junction Road. Watched TV and got angry again that Cameron won't listen to drugs report. The evidence is overwhelming now that prohibition is destructive to society by creating an unregulated black market. Legalisation and taxation is the best model to follow as America is now doing. Most of cannabis producing countries would benefit to a massive degree if they could export a product they have refined and produced for centuries. Rant over. Back to today. Ang says she's gunna get up at 6.30pm but she's had nothing to eat all day. Not even a complan after I got some more from the chemist earlier. Took Buster with me and dropped Ang's repeat prescription in. Came back and had a lie down for an hour before getting dogs to boat beach and around to wasteland. Only had 2 coffees today so far but just about to have 3rd. Roll on next year. Maybe the world will listen because the situation is getting beyond a joke. Can the world not deal with a messiah being alive on the planet.

Climate cooling

I helped Ang wash her hair this afternoon which helped her feel better. She is in a lot of pain now and really wobbly needing me to take her to toilet and back. She can't take having a wash today after doing her hair but hopefully tomorrow. ITV had piece on the failure of climate change solutions being implimented. The greatest problem for humanity and it is only discussed every 12 months. Stoopid. Move the messiah and his wife to a location near the border of Scotland and climate ooling will occur for as long as the messiah lives.

Lay in

Didn't wake til 9am today. Got up and got dogs out for a wee. Had coffee and fed dogs then got them out to the railway station. Ang got up briefly when I got back but went back to bed and asked me to wake her in an hour and a half. Am going to join her in bed for a while as knackered because stayed up quite late last night. Weather warmed up as expected. So pissed of with news at minute, roll on Wednesday.

Preamble

Ang ate a banana this afternoon. I had a kip for a few hours when medication over powered me. Ang asked me to get her to toilet before I laid down as she was feeling wobbly. She thinks it's the morphine as by time I got back up she was feeling better. Didn't get out for 3rd walk today but took dogs out on green when woke up. Had best veggie sausages ever tonight. Sainsbury's own brand. Their veggie burgers are good as well. Aargh JSP on HIGNFY. Prolly ruin the show. I currently at the same level as when punched someone in the face. Only reason I don't now is that it would interupt the plan I have running. Break down global finances and accelarate global warning. When recognition of global climate change occurs and effective measures are taken to combat it I will move and reverse the effects I have caused and nullify humanities effect for as long as I remain alive. The financial effect is nullified by writing off all my debts and paying back all the interest I have paid. It is a very modest sum for the billions it is costing gllobally not doing it. The cost of the soaking the UK has taken this year should also be factored into the cost currently accumulated during this attempt to get humanity to recognise me for what I am. Failure to do this will make me continue to soak the UK, raise the temperature globally and locally and further devastate the global financial system, increasing effect by attacking the food systems.

Roadworks a pain

Woke about 8 and got up at 8.30ish. Ang got up for a while but went back to bed. Got dogs to railway station and came back to Ang up again. She had a complan and a cup of tea. Went to shop with Buster because Dainty didn't wanna come so went via boat beach and the wasteland. Ang had another complan when I got back and I had 4th coffee. Rang sister and she hoping to move back home a week Saturday. She gunna ring tonight hopefully to chat. Need to get to Upton to get Dainty's medication as only got about a weeks supply but don't know if buses are running because of roadworks. Might have to walk :(.

More extreme weather

Ang woke me at 3.30am this morning and I ended up taking dogs down to the garage to get a bottle of cider after I'd had a coffee and a couple of smokes. Came back and had another coffee and fed the dogs about 6.45. Watched James Whale on Sky news. He doesn't seem to be as good on TV as he is on radio. Strange. Would love a discussion with him when he can't just cut you off. Philipines taken a battering. Not surprised it so bad when they live in tin huts :O.

Castration

Went in to Ang at 12.30ish and she got up. She started smoking then had real problems breathing. Had a rant at me and 2 complans to drink followed by a cup of tea. Sonya and Martine rang and Martine is gunna come over. Got dogs to shops about 2.30. Had rant on facebook and in ARK today. Still wanna rip chancellors balls off.

Easing the rain in UK

Ang woke about 8.20 and I got up shortly after. Watched news for a while before taking dogs out. Not getting the messiahs opinion out is holding humanity back. The problem of finances is easily solved. I have given, in this blog, the solution. I will not keep repeating myself. Sorry about the temperature drop in the UK. Was trying to keep it up over christmas but forgot to eat enough. Amazing how the world goes tits up financially and weather wise when the messiah doesn't do what he should. Working on drier and warm again. Ang still in bed but said she'll get up midday and have summut to eat. :)

Manic Tuesday

Ang woke me about 8.20 and stayed in bed. Forgot to ring Dr but my CPN contacted them and arranged an appointment. I had to ring an arrange home visit. He checked Ang, prescribed more Codeine and Morphine and left after about 10 mins. I talked on the doorstep and he left me more worried about her than ever. She had a complan and 2 satsumas after he left. Helen and Graham came over and Helen came in for a while. Got taxi to fetch prescription as waiting for friend to turn up and don't know what time they will get here. £5.60 for taxi. Ang had dose of morphine as soon as it arrived but is squealing every time she moves. About 4.20 she threw a fit while I was on the phone to Martine. Thankfully she calmed down after 10 minutes but really upset Buster. She got up about 5 and started drinking.

Late night

Stayed up late last night chatting to a lady from texas online. Also chatted to lady from Copenhagen for while. Both are in my ARK group on facebook. Ang got leary on and off from yesterday afternoon onwards in between falling asleep on sofa. She ate a muffin that I got in Poole late last night but that was all she had all day. She's been taking loadsa morphine extra and has run out yesterday so was in a lot of pain. She woke me just before 8 this morning but has stayed in bed.

Eating shit

Ang got leary last night so I went to bed but she carried on for half an hour. She stayed in the lounge all night but used the TV for light so I managed to sleep most of the night. Woke up once and tried to get her to come to bed but couldn't get her to. She got me up just after 8 and she has dozed on the sofa since. Took dogs to railway station and Dainty ate some dog poo while I was picking up Busters. By the time I got to her she had got it all over her muzzle and was licking it up. She a vile dog. Got home and Ang asked me to go to shops so had last coffee and then took Buster down with me. Came back and Ang was in bed but she got up again and then fell asleep on the sofa. Forgot to get coffee at shop so will call in again when take dogs out for 2nd walk. Prolly gunna go to boat beach on 2nd walk as it's driest place to go at the minute. The backwaters fields are really muddy. Only other dry place is behind the railway line and the path up to ham common.

Poole visit

2 days ago Ang got up in the night and ate 3 small muffins. The next day though she spent most of the day in bed and only had a complan. Friday I went into Poole and paid £7.77 for some satsumas, a bunch of bananas and a bunch of grapes in M&S. Total rip off. Bet none of it was fairtrade. Ang managed 5 grapes when I got back :(. Martine came round later which cheered Ang up while she was here. Dogs went loopy when she arrived. Ang kept me up late and woke 3 times during the night so I hardly got any sleep. Got up at 8 this morning and Ang got up as well. She asked me to go to shops to get some cider and I refused until she had something to eat. Hated doing that but at least she's had a fruit yoghurt now today. I took the dogs to the boat beach for second walk and Ang started giving me grief shortly after I got back so I went to bed for a few hours. Still tired even though slept earlier. Hope tonight is less disturbed. Only got one cup of coffee each for tomorrow so need to decide weather or not to buy some more. :)