Countdown

Ang had a few small things to eat yesterday. A complan, a muffin and a few spoonfuls of tuna salad. She kept me up late but we both woke at 8ish. She had a coffee and then a complan but went back to bed about 9. I took dogs to railway station and it was really cold out. Am not looking forward to next walk although it's blue skies and sunshine now :). Really fed up with myself as forgot to ring homeswapper guy last night. It was too late when I remembered. Gotta wait til tonight now before can try again. 13 days to go to last triple day of the millenium. 3.33 most special time that day.

Beginning a new day

Ang kept me up really late last night but managed to get up by 8.20. She only had 1 complan yesterday and spent most of the day in bed. Today she got up with me. I took dogs to shops and got some coffee and a few other things. When got back made us both a coffee and Ang had a muffin with hers. :). Thankfully her mood is better today and she has some fight in her again. She is determined to stay out of bed today and try and eat. :) Have got to collect her weekly meds today and try to get to Lidl to get some treats for dogs. Rapidly running out of poo bags as well so got to get to Poole in next few days. Tried to contact person on Home Swapper earlier who has flat in Tyneside but got no reply. Will try again tonight. Need to find out if property allows dogs as it great location. Perfect for climate cooling so sooner get moving now the better although not got a private garden for dogs.

A coffee break

Ang had complan yesterday and a few mouthfuls of tuna salad. I got up today and was gutted got no coffee. Been drinking loads of it last couple of weeks so decided to go cold turkey today. Gagging for one at the minute. Went back to bed after took dogs out this morning and didn't surface again til nearly 2pm. Took dogs down shops with me and got some milk when I got up. Ang had a complan when got back and has promised to have some tuna salad later. Had headache since woke first thing and haven't managed to sleep it off even though took some co-codamol. Ang has stayed in bed again today like yesterday as she says it's too painful to get up. Was pissed off BBC said this weather was not unusual yesterday. Guess will have to get some more coffee in a few days and repeat the same cycle of events.

More power cuts.

We both woke during the night and it was dark everywhere because power was off. Not sure what time it was but later at 8ish Ang got up and power was on but it went off for a few minutes after I got up. Ang in loads of pain and unable to cough properly so her lungs are filling up with muck. She's finding it harder and harder to breath. Trying to get her to eat but she gets angry that I keep mentioning it. Hopefully Ang gunna have some tuna and potatoe salad later after I've made it. She said she's gunna have a complan after I get some milk from the shop.

Big mistake.

Ang had one of her anti sickness tablets yesterday and managed to eat 2 country slices. She stayed up most of the day but was in a lot of pain. She finally got some clean clothes on as well. Hopefully today she will eat more. She drank from yesterday afternoon but didn't get nasty. Dainty won't leave her elbow alone so is in a buster collar. Got up at 8 this morning but Ang has stayed in bed. Went to railway station with dogs and Ang wants some yoghurts from shop so gotta get down there soon. Flat getting desperate for clean up again so looks like gunna have to do it. The anger at the media is immense. The biggest story since the press has existed and they are ignoring it. One day they may understand their mistake.

Just ask

Ang kept me up til 2am last night. Dr called around today and examined Ang. He's made it clear to her she must eat something. After he left she had a complan and later I went to chemist to get another prescription. While down there I got some cakes and Ang managed a country slice about 5pm. Took dogs out this afternoon for 2nd walk and Dainty managed to go. Went through estate to boat beach and then walked around to the wasteland and the kids playground. Called into the shops for a few things and then walked home. More rain predicted according to BBC. If anyone contacts me from the media I'll stop the rain.

Short history

My friend from college asked me why I hadn't been online and done my blog a while back so I carried on. Every media station was contacted. No matter what I do to try and contact someone who could promote that a messiah is alive I get laughed at. Anyone I try and talk to about it shies away. The only person I can talk to about it is a shrink. No-one will have a serious discussion about my beliefs they just want me to be convinced it is an illness. I do not and have never accepted this. I have been subjected to massive doses of drugs by various shrinks and it has resulted in massive disturbances in my behaviour. I have commited numerous crime and been subjected to humiliating and degrading treatment on numerous days. They took me to London once before. I cried and just said you locked me up for 5 years. Just gotta say. Glad I don't have children. Theres gunna be nothing left soon.

Banks

Got an email that pissed me off. God help Barclays for that one. Robbing bastards. 48 hours to correct it now or they start losing that % of their income as it was mine. I love this game. Make a move any authority and I'll tell you why you shouldn't. A good system you have in place on Earth. Raged on Ang for starting on me again. Made it clear to her she can't do that while she's here. She says she going into hospital tomorrow as I can't take care of her. She quietened down now and been drifting in and out of sleep. Can't believe the drugs in the flat now. It like a pharmacy. Just gave her last dose of morphine before bed. She got loads of cider left so prolly keep me up late or get up and drink during the night. Fetched her some clothes hours ago but she still won't get changed. She hasn't eaten at all today and not had any milk. My social worker spoke to her today when she rang me but never gave me the chance to talk to her about council women visiting. Couldn't be bovvered to ring her back.

Music

Had Indian last night and saved some for today. Ang settled yesterday after she had a dose of all her painkillers and managed to sleep for a few hours. She woke early and put TV on about 7.30 so I got up. She drank quite a bit of milk yesterday but didn't eat anything. Today she is on cider but not playing up yet. News is depressing both of us. Wish I could enjoy music but you shouldn't make profit out of prophesy so struggle with it. Hidden within the lyrics are messages for humanity. Warnings. It's difficult to decipher but I think may be possible.

Dr at last.

Had women from council visit today. Couldn't deal with council officer just turning up and had to get her and the police to leave. Ang finally spoke to doctor and he has prescribed morphine and summut else. As soon as she is able to get to surgery he wants to see her because she is passing out and falling. It's prolly due to lack of food. She has had two bites of a cheese bagette and 1 complan in last 5 days. She refused help offered by council women and I don't understand that. Ang cannot get about properly and women from council hasn't rung me back. Neither has my social worker so left in limbo. Haven't managed to get dogs out for a second time yet cos of waiting for people to ring. Update. Council women rang and had long discussion. Hopefully my tenancy isn't under threat.

Annoying neighbors

Had Police visit few days ago. Woke up at 5.30 and got up. Ang was in extreme pain and about 7am got onto NHS direct. While was on phone to nurse Robbo can over by my window and set Buster off. I yelled at him from by the window and he eventually went away and I managed to calm Buster down. Shortly afterwards I went down shops to get some Ibuprofen for Ang and take dogs for walk. Saw Robbo coming back from shops and asked him to keep away from my window because it sets the dogs off. He said he would and I thought that was the problem solved. Shortly after I got back 2 police arrived and wanted an explanation of what had gone on. I told them and they left and went to see Robbo. Ang been in right state all over the weekend. She waited to see if things got better though and as they haven't I'm gunna ring the surgery this morning as soon as they open. Co-codamol and Ibuprofen aint doing anything for her. I woke at 5.15 today and Ang got up for a short while then went back to bed. Saw interesting piece with an Indian women on the BBC about food production in India and the rights for farmers to produce seeds.

Another fall.

Had a power cut between about 5.45 and 6.30 yesterday. Seems we got power back quicker than some according to the Echo online. According to them some people were out for 5 hours. Ang got up to go to toilet last night and fell in the bathroom. She hit the bath with her back on the way down and is in terrible pain today. She doesn't want to get up even after taking painkillers and having her Algesal put on it. Managed to get Dainty to walk to shops first thing and get some shopping but forgot rizlas so will have to go again later.

So the war continues

Took me 3 hours to get to appointment and back yesterday. Traffic coming out this way from Poole was horrendous. Made point that no shrink will side with me so a tribunal is not an option for me. Shrink argued about definitions at which point I realised if you have no followers you're deluded. So David Icke isn't deluded but I am. WTF. He doesn't agree that exposing some people to drug treatment can cause inability to live without the drugs even though he agrees they causes changes in brain chemistry. He says their is no evidence these changes are permanent. Hmmm. Guess I just have to carry on writing my blog and crippling the whole world financial system. The outlook for that is precise. 6 weeks ends the first attack. The other 5 attacks on the financial systems continue for over 4 years currently. Makes me wonder who can last this out longest. Me or humanity. Israel killing people again and trying to justify it. Jews even try to justify mutilating children so they good at twisting things.

Good news

Managed to get Ang this afternoon. She had slept and came over about 2pm. She is in quite a state and went to bed about 5. It was lucky she came over ask someone rang to say she's got her bed in rehab. She cried after she got of the phone and got up for a while so we could talk. Sonya is coming over tomorrow so should get to my appointment either with dogs in the car or Ang dogsitting.

I'll never quit

Ang slept all yesterday then got up as soon as I went to bed. Had argument and she went back to hers as I couldn't sleep with the light on. She yelled at her front door that she couldn't get in. By the time I got dressed and got out she'd got in her flat. I went back to bed and someone called the police who turned up at her door. I fell to sleep and knocked her door this morning. She yelled who was it but didn't come down to door. I tried again a few hours later but got no reply. Dunno what happened last night with police or who called em. Rang Martine to see if she can dogsit tomorrow for me but she has appointment at 4pm. Gotta hope Ang will else cannot go to my appointment. It sucks being tied to these dogs because Buster can't be left. Am so tempted to rehome him but that would be quitting. A dog is for life not just xmas.

Soldiers

It is suggested by this blogger that the Isle of Wight needs to be examined urgently. The reference to doctors and police in my last post refers to forthcoming scandals involving organised murders. There again I could be wrong....it could be worse. Time will tell. This song haunts me from my youth. Can only find the lyrics online. In a station in the city a British soldier stood Talking to the people there if the people would Some just stared in hatred, and others turned in pain And the lonely British soldier wished he was back home again Come join the British Army! said the posters in his town See the world and have your fun come serve before the Crown The jobs were hard to come by and he could not face the dole So he took his country's shilling and enlisted on the roll For there was no fear of fighting, the Empire long was lost Just ten years in the army getting paid for being bossed Then leave a man experienced a man who's made the grade A medal and a pension some mem'ries and a trade Then came the call for Ireland as the call had come before Another bloody chapter in an endless civil war The priests they stood on both sides the priests they stood behind Another fight in Jesus's name the blind against the blind The soldier stood between them between the whistling stones And then the broken bottles that led to broken bones The petrol bombs that burnt his hands the nails that pierced his skin And wished that he had stayed at home surrounded by his kin The station filled with people the soldier soon was bored But better in the station than where the people warred The room filled up with mothers with daughters and with sons Who stared with itchy fingers at the soldier and his gun A yell of fear a screech of brakes the shattering of glass The window of the station broke to let the package pass A scream came from the mothers as they ran towards the door Dragging their children crying from the bomb upon the floor The soldier stood and could not move his gun he could not use He knew the bomb had seconds and not minutes on the fuse He could not run and pick it up and throw it in the street There were far too many people there too many running feet Take cover! yelled the soldier, Take cover for your lives And the Irishmen threw down their young and stood before their wives They turned towards the soldier their eyes alive with fear For God's sake save our children or they'll end their short lives here The soldier moved towards the bomb his stomach like a stone Why was this his battle God why was he alone He lay down on the package and he murmured one farewell To those at home in England to those he loved so well He saw the sights of summer felt the wind upon his brow The young girls in the city parks how precious were they now The soaring of the swallow the beauty of the swan The music of the turning world so soon would it be gone A muffled soft explosion and the room began to quake The soldier blown across the floor his blood a crimson lake There was no time to cry or shout there was no time to moan And they turned their children's faces from the blood and from the bones The crowd outside soon gathered and the ambulances came To carry off the body of a pawn lost in the game And the crowd they clapped and cheered and they sang their rebel song One soldier less to interfere where he did not belong And will the children growing up learn at their mothers' knees The story of the soldier who bought their liberty Who used his youthful body as a means towards an end Who gave his life to those who called him murderer not friend

Shining a light

Ang got pissed yesterday and raised her voice from 8pm to 12.30. She eventually went quiet when she fell asleep after taking extra medication. I had a restless night and overslept. Her friend picked her up at 1.15 today to go to her appointment but she drank before she went. Don't know what time she will get back from Poole. Managed to get both dogs out about 1.30 and went down boat beach and along back way to shops. Dainty had to sit down for a bit coming along the wasteland but managed to get home alright. The next rounds will hopefully be the Police and Doctors. It'll be interesting to see which is first. The light is shining on the world and showing all the shadows.

Slow progress.

Cool...Obama in for second term....Pity it's his last. Martine coming over today. She bringing her computer as can't get her music to work. Ang got an appointment tomorrow but she drinking today :(. Shield collapsed when repainted corner image in bedroom but has extended to just before the railway station by event on walk this am. Speed of expansion is slower this time of year and the surface of majority of paintwork is dirty now which is weakening the circuit. The plan is hopefully to abandon this circuit for a more robust one on the border of Scotland. The whole system can be improved and optimised. The location would effect a climatic shift and negate human activity causing current trend in climate. Long term plan. Maximum levels of current circuit will be achieved in approximately 18 months from completion leaving 12 to 14 months of increase to go. However, now that I am fully satisfied there are no more faults I can fully expose the drain to sunlight. This could have two effects. Increase the speed of expansion and eventual area covered. In addition it will expose the occupants to faster moving d-field. The output of the circuit, air and water, will be more aligned. Rant over. Back to having a coffee and waiting.

Food for thought.

Stopped up late last night watching music on tv. Chatted to friend in usa after sorted dogs out this morning. She had an ovarian cyst burst and is being treated but in a lot of pain. Ang getting about more and coping with back pain. Spoke to sister earlier on facebook. She madder than buster. Suppose it runs in the family. Hopefully she'll be back living with her hubby soon as complete on sale of cattery in a few weeks. It's been a long time coming. Hot hard boiled eggs for breakfast. Got to like them in prison. Unbelievable some of the crap prisoners are fed though. A lot of dried ingredients. A pudding of a battered half jam sandwich. WTF. The effect over time of basic rations pays a toll on the body. Bread with insects in it that is brought cheaply from the bakeries.

My temple.

Ang stopped bingeing a couple of days ago. She's got more painkillers from dr yesterday and a gel to rub on her back. Couldn't get gel yesterday because chemist was out. They said loads of people had it lately. Interesting...is the local shield from my temple affecting community. Those behaving beadly towards others being affected by physical pain. That would be a really good system. The internal structure of the temple acts as a accelarater to the d-web. This causes a higher deposition of particles from the air filtered through the building. External the effect on the location is that all d-web activity is accelarated, decreasing in intensity from the external walls of the building. As the temple has established itself the strength of the field increases and extends it's range. During the first year the fields range was as far as the field near the garage on blandford road. This would explain the high incidence of infrastructure failure locally in subsequent years since partial completion in 2005. The temple field will extend to a maximum distance in direct proportion to the size of building and accuracy of the circuit painted. The type of effect is governed by the type of circuit used. The circuit consists of the colours and combinations they are in and the strength of the symbolism of depictation of life. The current temple amplifies all fields except higher spirituality. Focusing mainly on physical health and draining the system of bad influences. This draining and filtering process causes the inhabitants to be exposed to high levels of crap from the system. It's like being in the core of the reactor. Currently the building is draining in the hall and bedroom. Water and air passing through the building is being modified by the system and the longer the circuit remains in operation the more the influence will be felt globally. 7 years of pumping holy air and water into the system from this circuit. Then again this isn't real. Therew is not a god and messiahs are never born. lol