Veg curry

Ang managed two walks today but had to keep stopping on 2nd. We left her jacket at the garage on 2nd walk so had to go back on 3rd and luckily it was still there. There was two guys trying to get kite going for there grass board. They couldn't get kite right though. Ang managed some kippers today but no main meal. I've had 5 coffees and gunna make summut to eat after feed dogs.

Kinnect

Total of 6 coffees yesterday. During the night a really slow moving noisy train arrived. Think it was 4 am. Noise went on for ages. Managed to sleep again but woke at 7. Had 1 coffee so far. Leaving it 45 mins after get up which means only have time for one before get out with dogs. Still smoking but cut down to 15 a day. Be glad when down to 10 or less. Both my parents quit from 30 a day without any patches or other aids. Good to see surgeons using kinnect. Very cool. Games are a better way to advance technology than war.

Taxi

Had 4 coffees so far today. Ang eating bits today. A complan and a banana so far. Dainty managed two walks so far. Had unexpected letter from council today. Someone coming to visit in about 3 weeks. Stress I don't need. Had to send taxi for Ang's prescription cos was so pissed off.

Commerce

Had 6 coffees today. Friend came over and took me for short ride on his motorbike. Wicked. Free transport. That's good for the economy. Got to walk to chemist tomorrow though so that will nullify the good he did as they about the same distance. Got to cut bush outside flat soon. That means some old land will lose it's vegetation. So annoyed that people think I'm lazy. Just too bloody scared to do anything. I know digging soil results in earthquakes. I can trade labour for labour but the world uses money.

Questions

Only 1 coffee so far today. News is depressing again. No interview needed but answers needed. Does global recession decrease consumption of fossil fuels? Has deforestation decreased? Is loss of biodiversity still increasing? God I'm still trying to get heard.

Interesting

Effing banks. Gotta pay extra 32p per £100 pound interest soon. That's gunna speed up global decline. I pity humanity. You were warned 2000 years ago prophets would arrive. I offer you solutions. The impact globally of realisation that a god exists and is watching over reality is world shattering. That messiahs will be born when most needed is amazing. It will definately be too late for acceptance by the next election. Things will be too far in decline. Had two large coffees so far today so that's about 3 medium. Got 369 on because news is just enquiry. I'm not into music these days. Miss out on the pleasure it gives to the masses. It's messages from prophets to me. Ooops shrink would go to town on that.

I don't like Mondays

Had trouble breathing when got up. Was paniced a bit. Think better make appointment to see doc. Might need to get inhaler just in case it happens again. Calmed down after had smoke and stopped panicing. That's crazy. Intended going without fags today. This sucks. Advice to anyone listening.....NEVER SMOKE. Stole this off old friends facebook profile...Politicians are like nappies, they should be changed often and for the same reason.

Sunday

Had 4 coffees today. Ang been drinking and sleeping all day. Took dogs out onto green while it was hot then took them for a long walk about 6.45 this evening. Delivery arrived early and was out of breath when moved it all into hall. Everthing arrived but one bag of mixer and a tray of berries. Horrified at Indian Ocean program. Lychett Bay is just the same. The locals over-fish it to hell. You can see all the grooves in the mud at low tide where they have dredged for cockles. You're not even supposed to take shellfish from the area for human consumption. The bird population is greatly reduced as a consequence I think.

Sermon..How the messiahs work

There are 2 messiahs alive at any time. Each has dominion over 50% of the world. 1 male, 1 female. Harm a messiah and death will occur of humans in the world according to the location of injury on the body of the messiah. Loss of blood causes violent death of humans when the blood dies. Weather locallly is controlled in two ways. Temperature is controlled by the amount of food consumed and rainfall by the amount of liquids consumed and the water content of food. Creating rainfall requires more liquids as the temperature is increased and coffee creates heavy bursts of rain compared to water that gives light prolonged rain. Climate is controlled by location relative to place of birth. Towards nearest pole decreases temperature and towards equator increases temperature. Sexual activity increases population of earth. Financially any item paid for does badly. Any item given free to a messiah does well. Any institution charging interest to a messiah will be harmed. The maths is quite complex but 1% interest may be allowed.

Before dawn

Buster woke me up just before 4am...grrr. Got dogs out for wee and went on farmville as forgot crops last night. Ang got up about 4.15 and we put BBC news on.

Vets

Dainty had check-up and her anal glands emptied. Collected another bottle of her painkiller. Got freezer defrosted by 7pm and switched back on ready for tomorrow. Had tuna and potatoe salad after fed dogs. Ang not eaten today again. Watched a bit of the voice and now eurovision. Hungary strong. Hopefully quiet night tonight.

Anti-psychotics

Horrible night last night. Went to bed and Ang stayed up and was shouting about her sister. Threw her out and she begged to come back in. Eventually let her back in after she promised to be quiet. She's been taking olanzapine on and off for a while now and is starting to show signs she need them permanently now. She's complaining of getting terrible thoughts and paranoia. That's the same problem I had. After exposure to anti-psychotics for a while I found I couldn't live without them :( Got appoiintment for Dainty booked and just rung taxi. Nice to see a man of the cloth on the BBC for a change giving his views.

Today part 2

No luck today. Took video then couldn't get camera to switch to playback mode. The switch on top of camera won't work. Took me 20 mins to switch camera off. grrr. Had to go out a second time with Ang's camera. Video I took is not very good. Need to take some more but can only store about 1 min off video on her camera :( Video is here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AskL70cu5zI&feature=youtube

Today.part 1

Got up at 8. Had 2 coffees. Just about to have 3rd. Managed to get dogs on 2 walks so far. Went to boat beach on 2nd walk. Ordered dogfood and groceries. Spent £150 :( Delivery on Sunday so got all tomorrow to defrost freezer and rest of today to empty it. Ang had a complan earlier and isn't drinking yet :) Had 108 views on last post :) Gunna get out and do some filming after coffee. Lets hope get some good examples of the dweb on film.

Sermon

Shame about HP but my finances take 2 yrs roughly and I brought a HP laptop. The anti midas touch. Current outlook continues for 4 and half years barring a change in circunstances. Accelaration of decline continues until xmas when it accelarates. Sky gives me free TV so I'd invest if I were you people. I'm attacking Virgin but he has big pockets and good business skills. Preaching over

Don't get it

Just checked something. Queen Elizabeth II was crowned on 2 June, 1953 in Westminster Abbey. Surely that make her jubilee year 2013 not 2012 link http://www.royal.gov.uk/LatestNewsandDiary/Pressreleases/2003/50factsaboutTheQueensCoronation.aspx

Curry and chips

Made really nice veg curry with chips earlier. Got a portion left for tomorrow. Only some icecream and mix veg to use in freezer. Gunna cook the cabbage left and put it in the fridge tomorrow. Can defrost freezer then. Hasn't been done for 18 months or so. Hopefully get delivery then on Sunday. On last tray of 12 cans dog food. Not going filming tonight as Ang gone quiet so am happy stopping in and light is poor now anyway. Had 4 coffees today but only used 1 teaspoon coffee in each instead of 1 and a half. Gunna have bananas and icecream later :) Fed dogs earlier and they've both had a chew to chomp on. Watching BBC1 at minute waiting for main news at 10.

Boat beach

Ang started on me again so took the dogs out early. Went to the boat beach and the tide was quite high. Stopped on the first beach and Dainty had great fun running in and out of the water. Buster even went in twice. Stopped there for about 20 minutes then took a slow walk back. There was quite a few people down by the beach but they were sitting on the boats. Dainty was fine coming home so she's managed 3 walks today :) Camera has finished charging but need to make summut to eat before go out again as ravenous.

Charging

Ang been drinking for days now. She spent from 6pm to 10.30 shouting at me and refused to leave yesterday. She started again this morning but has taken some medication extra and calmed down a little. She's very angry with her sister at the minute for putting the phone down on me yesterday and taking it outr on me. :( Dainty has managed 2 walks so far today which is really good news. Have found charger to video camera and just put it on charge. Might be able to get out later when camera is charged up but got to get dogs on another walk first. Sun is blazing again and a friend rang from the beach earlier where she is with her mum. Gagging for a smoke but hopefully won't crack later and have one. Had last 2 days ago.

Relapse

Got up at 8 today. Took dogs on first walk and went to shops on way back. Dainty had to lay down twice on way from backwaters to shops. Going to have to take her to vets again instead of just getting a repeat prescription. I'ts been 5 days now she's not been doing well for. :( Going to have to take a taxi both ways as she won't be able to manage the walk. On 4th coffee today. Hopefully last. Managed to get breakfast but Ang not eating. Council were litter picking yesterday so it's much harder to track weblines locally. Hopefully going to charge video camera over next few days and get some weblines filmed to post on YouTube. Got to collect Ang's prescriptions today. Need to defrost freezer over next 2 days so got to use up last of food in it. Not much left so might be able to defrost it tomorrow. Can't get delivery til freezer sorted and only 14 cans of dog food left.

369

Got up just after 7 today so got dogs out early. Barclays online banking was down when I got up but have just managed to log in and pay bill. Visitors arrived on time and left quite quickly. Martine coming over early afternoon. She just rang and said she aiming to get 1.04 train from Bournemouth. She sounds happy today but can't suss media player out on her computer so will have to give her a quick lesson while she's here. Don't know much about it though as don't use it much. Got 369 on sky today. Need a break from news. Need to get dogs out again before she gets here.

Warming up

Dainty not been good today. She only managed one walk. Buster managed to get 4 walks. Ang been eating today but I've been suffering from mild cold or flu. Lemsip to the rescue and I've been curled up on my bed between dog walks. Sad to see Robin Gibb died. Looks like the hot weather is arriving a couple days early. No surprise the amount I'm eating.

Big questions.

Martine came round yesterday and stayed for quite a while. We all watched the voice together before she left. Had 5 coffees in total yesterday and 4 so far today. Ang came out on second walk today and we went to the boat beach. She kept having to stop on the way there and back but was glad to get out. Big questions was interesting today. So want to be a guest on the show with the question "Is there a god". I would argue there is and the dweb is a mechanism by which a god could manipulate reality. It's existance makes it more probable there is a god. My experiences also convince me there is a god and that Karma is a reality.

Early start

Took dogs behind railway track this morning. The walking bus was picking up in kiddies corner as I cut through so had to give them a wide berth with the dogs. Don't normally go out that early as dogs hate children but woke at 7.00 this am. Had 4 coffees so far but thankfully finished jar on last cup. This caffeine addiction sucks. Sonia visited while waiting for her daughter to do exam at local school. Just worked out when was drinking 9 coffees was having over 22 spoons of sugar a day. Scream. My dads got diabetes. No wonder I wasn't eating as much. Got tuna salad for dinner but dunno what to have tonight yet. Had beans on toast for breakfast. Ang had an apple tart Sonia brought round.

The cost of prosperity

Didn't blog yesterday but had a takeaway late last night. 4 coffees during the day and 2 cans of dr pepper with chinese. Loads of caffeine. :(. Slept well though and woke at 7.30. Temperature should start rising in about 3 days with a further rise in 9 days. Summer will prolly be very hot and dry. Dogs are fed and waiting to go out. Running short of Dainty's medication so will have to get up vets asap. More expense. Interest paid exceeds 70% of debt now. At 100% of debt total collapse of world economy occurs. The world can get out of this mess by an initial £6999 payment.

Sonia

Relative of Ang's came round earlier. Had my forth coffee of the day while she was here. She came back later with a meal for Ang but she has gone to bed now. She ate about 4 chips off my dinner before she went to bed and took two piece of chocolate swiss roll to bed with her. Managed to get the dogs out twice so far but on 2nd walk there was a tractor mowing the field by the shops. Can't believe it was still there as it was on the field by the garage at 9.30 this morning. Oops. Ang just got up. She's doing herself a microwave beef dinner. Excellant, she's eating. Now she raging at me for no reason. :(

WTF

Got dogs out in the sun this morning. The cash machine at the garage still out of order. Went to post office after got back and the post office machine is down as well. Everybody getting messages that their card should be retained. Barclays cards not working and the shop is machine is refusing cashback on cards. Everybody not able to get cash.

No cash

Had to go to chemist for Ang to get her some adult nappies. She managed to eat a poached egg on toast earlier. I'm on third coffee of day. Got to go over and clean and tidy her flat later. Can't get dogs out yet because of rain. Cash machine at garage was out of order this morning when took dogs and and one by chemist wouldn't work with Ang's card so couldn't get her any money. Hopefully she got enough to last her til Wednesday. Buster seems fine today. He's walking ok again and seemed really glad to get out.

Relapses

Oh dear.:( Had 1 cup of coffee 2 days ago and 3 yesterday. Just about to have 2nd today. Suppose if can keep it to 3 or less then that's better. Ang drinking already and it only 9am :(. Hope Buster can manage walks today as it driving me up the wall staying in. Ang going mental with it. She's managing to play farmville to pass the time but she's really fed up.

Big questions

Watched big questions this am after getting dogs out. Buster limping slightly still so going to rest him today. Sunny and warm today. Dainty been shying out of walks lately. Usually midday one. Got politics show on now. Still world not hearing me. No views on blog. Shrink wants me to keep predicting weather. I want to kick doors of BBC down and get on the big questions. Can't leave dogs for that long though. Paedo's do it for the same reason as serial killers. The feeling they get when they offend god they see as power. They either think it is the devil or they get hooked on feeling it.

Found

Found Ang's necklace yesterday when swept bedroom floor. :) Had first coffee for days today. Hope don't get back into drinking shedloads of it again. Lovely sunny morning today. Ang running to toilet loads. Really getting her down. Creating loads of extra washing. Fed up of BBC news spending most of day showing enquiry. Sky doing the same. Been watching CNN a lot to get world news. Buster was limping a little by the time we got home from first walk. Yesterday he jumped over the guard rail around the backwaters on the last walk and squealed when he landed. He managed to get home but was limping really bad. Not taking him for long walks today to give him chance to rest it. Shame because it's a luverly day and I'm bored.

Necklace

Angela discovered the necklace I got her has gone. I paid £220 for it. The only person who has been left alone in the flat is her sister. That sucks. She phoned her sister yesterday but is accusing me today. She's been shouting aand yelling for about 2 hours this morning. Finally gone quiet after taking some olanzapine. Managed to get one walk with dogs at about 9.30 but rained off now.

Food

Couldn't get Ang to eat anything. Not even a piece of toast with marmite. Can't stand it myself but at least it doesn't make me puke like brussel sprouts. Got beaten as a child and deprived of food for not eating them.

Living free

Yesterday was well sunny. Ang was in and out. She's here today. Not drinking yet which is good. I've managed to quit coffee totally. Drinking milk and water now so light rain expected for a while. Although whenever I eat rain will get heavier depending on the water content of the food. Financially the world is screwed. By christmas this year I think things will reach a peak. Possibly sooner.The only solution is for me to abandon all credit arrangements and lose all ability to function in the modern world. If the world supplies the little I need free...goods...not money....I have then no effect on the economy. The only way I was able to show this is now coming to fruition. It was also another piece of evidence to show you. There is a way out. Sainsburys are doing well now because I've hardly bin using them. Asda are under pressure now. You people got the records....Check the spending.

No water

Water off this morning. Got loads of washing that needs doing. Thankfully got just over 5 litres of bottled water in the house so can keep dogs going for a while. Got milk for me to drink. Ang not phoned yet today. She's gunna be in a right state unable to flush loo with her using it so much. Hope this don't go on for too long.

Drug driving

The world has fine wine and almost many varieties of hashish. Tobacco is another with many flavours. All are drugs. I smoke hashish to the detrement of my lungs and my life. People treat you differently as soon as they find out you smoke hashish in the UK. I have kept it secret for a time to many people in my life for long periods and seen their change in atitude after I have told them. I tell everyone now. Another bad part to smoking pot is I have been unable to drive. Never learnt because I was never going to drive stoned. No-one should. Lets hope some of the people on heavy medication get stopped as well.

Rain but sunny now.

Was complete wash out this morning. Didn't get dogs out til gone 2pm. Kicked Angela out last night but she got in touch this morning to get me to fetch a bottle of cider from the shops. Had to go down shops in the rain for her. She came over earlier and said hello to the dogs. Says she never coming back. It's peaceful now but lonely without her. Hope she's ok. Been watching news mainly. Goverment better get these drug tests up to scratch. I had a hair test come back negative to cannabis a few years ago. Totally wrong. Haven't been clean since was 17 until got locked up. They enforced it. There was an empass for 5 years til they agreed to let me out even if I came up posative for cannabis. That was a long fight. This current one will take longer but I grow impatient. Looks like the end of the day is gunna be sunny. End of first test. Thank god.

Sunshine on a rainy day

Got the bright afternoon the day before weather change. Tomorrow will locally be bright. That's one success. UK weather is different.

Throwing arrows

The sport of throwing arrows was invented in the early 1970’s in Coventry. It was first played on a field between Wood End and Potters Green. The field was created after a pond and dry canal were filled in and grassed over. In 2010 the field still exists. Making a throwing arrow is simple as you only need 4 things. 1) A green garden stick-nowadays they come in 60cm lengths 2) Two playing cards 3) Thin string 4) A knife First you split the stick at one end about 15mm longer than either the width or length of the cards. Place the two cards central to the stick in whatever direction you choose when splitting the stick. Bind the stick tightly above and below the card and carve a small notch 5mm below the binding below the card. Trim the card into flights. Trim the end of the arrow into a point. After the arrow is made you will need a piece of string approximately 2 and a half times the length of an arrow with a large knot at one end. Methods of play There are two distinct methods of play. 1) Over arm 2) Underarm In both cases the string is placed in the notch and looped over the knot securing it in place by keeping the string taut. The string is wound from and must past once around the forefinger or first two fingers. It can be wound around more times and around the hand also Once the string is wound around the hand so the arrow can be easily grasped near it’s point while keeping the string taught it can be thrown. This is accomplished by flicking the arm and wrist and releasing the arrow at the required trajectory. With practice height, distance and accuracy can all be achieved Overhand is used for distance and height and underhand is sometimes used for accuracy. The game. A course is set out alternating between ends of the field and encompassing different targets. Each player throws around the course and must get within 2 feet of each target on the course. The first throw must be done with one foot on the start point and each subsequent throw must be done with one foot where the point of their arrow lies. A score is kept of how many throws are taken and also the distance from the target achieved. In the event of a tie on throws then all the distances are added and the person with the smallest total wins,

Simple economics

Was hard to resist 2nd coffee this morning :(. Still won't have another now today. Working on raising temperature now. Finally heard a politician talking sense on TV. Surprised it was a conservative. He's so right. You increase the money for the poor and it all cascades up the system, not give tax breaks to the rich and hope they pass it down.

Day 1

Suceeded in 3 coffee spread over morning. Tomorrow will be just 1. Lets see how long I can maintain on one so tomorrow is day one of hopefully 3 to 4. Hope got the calculation right. BBC predicting rain at minute. If 4 days might be as late as 9th to dry up but the eight will be a fairly dry afternoon. Hopefully I'll get a dry afternoon on the 7th though.

Why I'm angry

Meeting with shrink was heated. He still adamant I am deluded. We argued about my rights under the European convention. He was wrong. Someone declared mentally ill has no recourse to the European court against there detention. My shrink was wrong. I atempted to fight my detention and applied to the European court but was heavily drugged by doctors until I was unable to function properly. This left me in the position of being unable to fight my case and time lapsed on it. All my hospital admissions are based on previous diagnosis and presentation. Who wouldn't be angry at being faced with incarceration, often in solitary confinement and being enforced to take dosages of tranquelising drugs that eventually break your will to fight. I cannot fight my case for dismissal from the section 37/41 of the mental health act because no shrink will declare me well because I believe I am the messiah back on Earth. I am awaiting the 7 th of this month to show you the accuracy of the weather prediction I made this month and the prediction of financial collapse I made in 2007. These facts can be checked. What my shrink said is prove it. The evidence is available on my website wwww.arkdoorway.org.uk and contained in the posts on this blog. If anyone cares to study it. I keep attempting to contact the BBC but they call people like me pathetic. If I am right this is the greatest story of the 21st century. If the shrinks are right it is one of the saddest.

Morning

Leaflet just arrived in post. Dogs got half each to rip up. Got to visit shrink today. Don't know if they still reading this blog or not but sick to death of 3 monthly check ups to make sure that I don't intend to protest any more. World still not talking to me but just plodding on with it's own ideas. They need to listen to mine. The feedback I need is absent.

Doctors

Got to visit dr today. Really rubs my nose in it. Control the weather but have to visit a shrink. Was forced to take medication and became reliant on it. Mostly it sent me mental though and wrecked my body for years. Actually when you study me from birth you wonder why I want anything to do with humans.