Under pressure

Today the printer arrived just after 8.30. I was laid on the bed in my clothes as had tried to get some more kip after Ang woke me at 4.15. Yesterday she woke me just after 4 and I stayed up. Am terribly tired today and Ang has gone back to bed now. She’s drinking brandy like it’s going out of fashion and sleeping loads during the day. She has only had 2 sober days since she went to France. She keeps saying to me that she’s mentally ill and needs my help to get to the toilet. Yesterday she took her medication and threw up almost straight away so lost it all. I got the dogs out for three walks yesterday but only took them to the backwaters for 5 minutes this morning at about 9. Going to have a strong coffee and try and get them out for a proper walk in a while. Yesterday there were 42 swans at the backwaters. For last few weeks there has been between 30 and 40 swans there just about every day. This is the first year I’ve seen as many. Normally there is only a few that don’t stay long. Ang’s sister came over this afternoon and stayed quite a while. She comforted Ang for a while. When she left she promised Ang she'd come back tomorrow. I took the dogs out for a wee after she went as too tired to take them for a walk. Am going to try and sleep for an hour or two before have to feed them at 7.30. Ang is asleep now and hasn’t drunk since about 11 and it’s 4.30.