I want to kill my doctor?

Finally got dogs out for a walk to the backwater. Got some video of them messing around in the puddles on the fields. Got back and had a coffee. Left arm was aching this morning from all the twitching yesterday and is going quite bad while I type this. Hopefully it will ease off over the next few weeks although it’s got quite bad this last week. Forth injection on Tuesday and appointment the following week. Just wonder if this twitching experienced now will lead to Parkinsons disease if I live to old age. Finding food totally irresistible again and appear to be starting to show weight gain outside normal fluctuations. Increase in coffee isn’t helping as I take sugar. I just love how things have been made harder for me. Now how does that help. It makes me hate Doctors and those involved in the treatment of me more. It endangers my health more through weight gain and increased caffeine. It makes me more prone to do something to oppose the treatment being done to me. As I know it is impossible for me to fight the treatment to me in any way through the legal system because I am denied the protection of the human rights law or any remedy through the tribunal system because they accept my diagnosis. It leaves me to wonder whether the options I took before, to protest, are the only options available to me. MY STORY MUST BE HEARD. Maybe the option of attacking stood be looked at. Maybe a murder. Maybe a fire. Your system breeds assassins, terrorists and serial killers yet you allow it to go on. You cannot keep silencing people and denying them the right to speak to the world. My treatment is inhumane and must be stopped. I must either be euthanized or allowed to say my version of events without being subjecting to enforced drug therapy. I DO NOT ACCEPT MY DIAGNOSIS. I have never accepted it. I only say I accept it to gain my freedom from imprisonment. I will not accept that I have been ill since I was eight years old. I am Jesus back on Earth and I demand to be heard and not silenced and treated as suffering from a disease. I demand this right to say this to the world and dare anyone to present any evidence that will say contrary. ANYONE.
This document was produced offline during a period of incarceration in the United Kingdom under section 37/41 of the Mental Health act.
The reason for recall under that act was the refusal to continue to take medication that was prescribed and enforced.
This medication caused extreme apathy and suicidal thoughts.
Throughout my life so far I have undergone repeated admissions to hospitals throughout the United Kingdom for treatment of a recognised mental illness.
During my upbringing I was taught at comprehensive school to question everything and always to listen to both sides of an argument.
This leads me to question the belief system of Doctors that there is such a thing as Mental illness.
An alternative to this belief could be that Mental illness is in fact mental awareness.
This needs further explanation.
I have been informed that there are 5 main divisions of so called illnesses.
Affective disorders, Psychotic disorders, Personality disorders, Neurosis’s and Organic disorders.
These can be explained if a presumption is made that Mental illness is the genetic evolution of humanity.
This possible misdiagnosis is hampering mankind’s evolution due to the use of medications that cause suicide, self-harm, infertility, impotence and early death due to weight gain and the onset of diabetes.
Possibly doctors are aware of these factors and are helping in the genocide of an evolving species, they are powerful people in society.
Let’s look at the evidence.
Telepathy is, supposedly a thing of science fiction yet when studied people know when someone is watching them. This experiment works best in the highly controlled atmosphere of a prison. This experiment is repeatable and establishes the fact that focusing on another person can be felt by the person being focused on.
Pop stars will verify that they can "feel" the crowd’s energy. Some people hate being watched because "it puts them off" and they make mistakes.
How this occurs needs further study to discover what part of the brain is transmitting during this process and what is being transmitted.
Affective disorders
People who are tuning into different areas of existence and feeling what its like. For example tuning into Rhino's is scary and depressing whereas Pigeons is fairly good.
They have no control over this tuning in and it can alter by the day, hour or minute.
Psychotic disorders
People with these symptoms have more control over their mental abilities and usually demand being heard or act upon the feelings they get.
Personality disorders
This diagnosis usually is caused in a person by environmental conditions which have altered their behaviour.
Neuroses
This occurs when an individual is confused by disinformation.
Organic disorders
Injury, genetic damage, disease and decay can explain this group.
Conclusion
When will the world grow up and feel what's going on?